save me // phan

cant breathe // chapter 5

warning: blood, idk it's not that descriptive
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dans pov

phil came in today. he was silent, i wonder if he got bored of me. he was one of the only nice people here. most of the people tried to act genuinely happy about helping 'crazy' people but being here for as long as i have, i can tell that that's all bullshit.

i want to draw but i have no more colors. i used them all. i didnt know what else to color it with, maybe I could use my blood. I could make a rose and paint it when the red. wait. no. i cant, i promised zoe i wouldn't do that anymore because the loss of blood can cause people to faint. (a/n i know what from my own experiences)

zoe walked in again. she looks stressed, i wonder if ts the baby thing or something to do with anything because anything could be happening right now. there are so many things happening right now that we don't know about and have no control over, and its surpri-.

i was cut off my my own rapid thoughts by someone's throat clearing up, it was Zoe's. she only acts like this when she has bad news. so i grabbed a paper that i was gonna draw on and wrote 'what's wrong?' she read it but continued to pace around the room. this is the main part where i hate not wanting to talk because if i were a normal person i could just yell at her but, sadly no, i had to be patient.

all of a sudden phil stumbled into the room and gave me a hug, it was so unexpected so i didn't really have time to hug him back, "im so sorry" he mumbled into my shoulder while hugging me. i gave him a confused look as well as zoe. he removed himself from the hug and looked at zoe who quickly whispered something in her ear. and he just gave me a sympathetic smile.

'what's going on?' at this point i was utterly confused and so my mind starts racing on the possibilities that could be going on, could someone have died? am i gonna die? is the place on fire? i felt my head hurt and everything slowly become blurry.

"hey, hey calm down." phil said while coming closer to be and wrapping his arms around mine, i rested my head on his shoulder slowly starting to calm down, suddenly zoe quickly grabbed her phone and took a picture. greattttt. "gonna save that for the wedding" she quietly mumbled while putting her phone back in the pocket (a/n pocket autocorrected to pickle and now i can't stop laughing at like 3 am) of her white dress.

"okay, so.. im just gonna say it. your mother threatened to sue us if she can't see you. and technically because you are under 18 she is allowed to do that." zoe rambled. after processing all of the information that spilled out of her mouth i started tearing up, i tried to hide it but i couldn't. i started balling into phils chest while shaking.

i started gasping for air but i couldn't, it felt like my throat was on fire. zoe had gotten me some water but it didn't help and since the verbal communication wasn't an option i was just sitting there gasping for air while Zoe was panicking asking for help and phil was hugging me. i don't think they knew how much it hurt me though, it literally felt like satan moved into my throat and was throwing a welcome home party.

so i tried the unthinkable. to speak. i first tried to mouth out the word but it wouldn't come out, after trying and trying i motioned zoe, Phil and one of the nurses that was trying her bet to help, to come closer before barely croaking the words 'save me' and falling into a welcoming darkness.

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(heh ur welcome , i know this chapter was kinda everywhere but it was a filler/dans thoughts and his thoughts are everywhere so :,)

anyways comment if you are enjoying yourself so far ((: