We all have a dark side including "anger, madness, weakness, crying and losing the ones we love" and we try our best to hide it away, not because we're ashamed of it but because it's ugly and not cool to show it to the people around us, so instead of facing the truth we just stay up all the night in our beds shedding unlimited tears and I dunno why we do that but I guess we need it, we just need it, maybe because we were acting strong in the daylight and in the night it's time to be free to act as we actually are, maybe because none of our dreams seems to be true or maybe just because it feels better, I mean when we cry too much on someone or something until we can't remember the reason that makes us cry in the first place only then we'll realize that it won't kill us and we'll realize that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger than ever before..
I know that everyone got hurt in his life in different ways but what I'm trying to say is "it's okay to cry on your own and let that kid who's inside of you to appear, it's okay to be that sensitive person for awhile, it's okay if you wanted to be alone cuz you know that no one will ever understand you and definitely It's okay to sleep until 3pm because we were listening to sad songs until 5am in the night before"
Well, let's be honest here cause I had really some bad times and tough nights too, I cried so much and I couldn't keep my pillow dry for days, I still can remember how many times I went to my bed with tears in my eyes and death in my heart, I screamed too loud "what the fuck is going inside of my head" it's like I was looking for answers to questions didn't even exist, I got lost and I felt like a worthless piece of shit for too long, I had days when I couldn't find a major reason that makes me want to live on this earth, indeed the emptiness is what really killed me
but in the end here I am, a survivor after all..
I'm sorry guys that I had to end this book in this hopeless awful way, I'm sorry if I put any tears in your shining eyes, and I'm truly sorry if I made you remember things you forget about them for awhile.
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RandomThis book has a lot of oppositions between happiness and sadness, between high hopes and disappointments, between our dreams and our reality, it's just like playing hide and seek actually hide and seek is the story of my life
