The Sun And The Moon

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As soon as I got home I went too my room,grabbed an old stuffed animal I used too take with me everywher from my closet and sat down on my bed, I started crying, what if James was right? What if we both were broken now? I shook my head, no it was better like this. I wouldn't be able too hurt him again, never. We were done. It was over between us...  It was all over...
What had I done? What was I thinking? Where was I with my mind? James was right I would regret breaking up with him. Tears started streaming over my face, I laid down with my head on my pillow and my stuffed animal in my arms, and I cried myself too sleep like that.

''Moon, you were right, you broke me, but you only broke me after you left me.'' James said, he didn't cry like he did when I broke up with him, he looked mad ''Explain me why you did it? Why!?''
''James... I already...'' I never finished because James suddenly ran off. Without anything. I stared at him running of confusedly.
''How does it feel?'' a creepy voice said behind me, I turned around, I saw the man clothed in black, and I hadn't even noticed I was in the forest until I saw the man clothed in black.
''H...How does what feel?'' I silently asked him
The man came a step close ''Being left, broke, alone. How does it feel?'' he was so close nowand I could see his face, I regonized it, it was so familiar, I just couldn't place it. ''HOW DOES IT FEEL!'' he screamed at me. ''No one is about to save you anymore! You'r about to die alone.'' he was laughing now, suddenly everything was gone again and I saw myself laying in a bed, which was in a white room, a hospital room. My eyes were closed, and I saw my family were sitting next too my bed, and they were crying.  And not a moment later they were at a cemetery, a hole in the group, everyone was crying, everyone I knew was there exept for James, he wasn't there.
''This is how your life is about end. Alone.'' I didn't have too look back too see who it was, I knew the creepy voice, it was the man clothed in black again, why was he here all the time? I turned around again, he had his cap down now, and I saw who it was, it was-

''Moon, wake up, you're about to be late for school.'' I opened my eyes and saw my mom was standing next to my bed, it was just a dream, I sighed relieved and looked at my clock, I only had 10 mintues left before the schoolbus would leave. I jumped out of bed and changed clothes while my mom left the room, I just picked something random black jeans and a blue shirt, packed my bag and went down stairs.
''Why isn't James here yet? He always so on time.'' mom questioned, I made a fast breakfast while I  said ''James won't come anymore.'' my voice broke when I said anymore, mom put what ever it was down and looked at me.
''What? Why not?'' she asked confused
''We, uhm... kinda broke up'' I explained trying not too start crying
''Why would he break up with you, he wouldn't do that, I've seen the way he looks at you, he would never break up with you.'' I saw her confusion on her face when I turned around too look at her.
''He didn't break up with me, I broke up with him.'' I explained
''What? Why? Only a few days ago you told me how much you loved him.''
''Can I please live my own life? Maby I only did it for his own safety and healt!'' I yelled at her, but I immidietly regret it, her face went from suprised and confused too angry and worried.
''You first need to go too school, but when you are home we are going to talk young lady.'' she said with her hands in her side.

The schoolbus was almost empty, on me and 3 other poeple who I didn't know left. I just stared out of the window, if it would be raing I litterly could be in a depressive music video. But I didn't mind. I also felt like it so I just looked like I felt.
The bus made a stop again and 1 person came in. I knew him, I only questioned why he was in the bus, I knew he had a car.
''James... What-'' I wanted too ask but he just walked past me and said with a annoyed tone and without looking and me ''My car is broken, so I needed to take the bus.'' his answer was very short and made clear he didn't want too talk to me or see me, which I totally deseved, i made a huge mistake by breaking up with him, it was all my fault. I sometimes looked at James, but as soon as he cathed me looking I looked out of the window again.
The bus stopped in front of the school and I got as fast as possible, with one other person and the bus drove away again, too the next school.
I hurried into the school to my locker, unlocked it and ut some book in it so my bag go lighter, I looked at the poictures of me and James and ripped the all out of my locker and threw them away, I was about too close the locker when I saw one picture which had fallen on the ground, and I know, how cliché thowing all the pictures away and just keeping one, and starting crying everytime I would see it. I closed my locker and I saw Sarah, I walked up too her called her name, she looked up and smiled at me ''Hey Moon! How are you?'' she asked while we hugged eachother
''I'm good how are you? And sorry that I couldn't come to your party.'''I apoligized, she laughed, how did she not have a boyfiend? she was so pretty and nice, she deserved one much more then I did.
''It's okay, and I'm good too, come on, let's go to class, I can't be late again.'' she said laughing and I smiled lightly, we walked too our class. Rose and Cassandra, with who we shared this class, only Olive missed, she was having artclass, were all into a disscussion. Sarah and I sat down behind them, they looked up ''Moon! I missed you so much! It was almost impossible without you too hang around with her'' Cassandra complained while she pointed at Rose who had a huge grin at her face.
''I'm impossible?'' Rose asked, but she didn't go on, because she had too laugh, she Always found it funny too sort of bullie Cassandra, who didn't really mind, and if she did she made it clear and Rose stopped. ''And, how is Heath?'' she just asked changing subject
''What do you care about my brother?'' I asked laughing ''But he is okay.'' I added, Rose lifted her shoulders once and said ''I just wanted to be nice.'' Cassandra and Sarah laughed, Cassandra leaned toward me ''She actually likes Heath.'' she explained to me on which Sarah added ''She can't stop talking about him.''
Why now? At the moment I'm going through a break up everyone seems to be falling in love.
''We could become sisters!'' I said fake exited, but I should have known my friend would notice it was fake even if they weren't Olivia.
''What's wrong girl?'' Rose asked and they all looked at me, I sighed and looked at my hands while I explained them what happened and what I did, and that I did regret it like he said I would, I tried too explain why I did it, but everytime after i tried too explain, it felt like an even bigger mistake.