The Sun And The Moon

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''No...'' I breathed and I heard Heath do the same, I stared at the face, I never would have thought he would've done this, anyone but not him...
''No, this can't be treu... No'' I heard Heath wispher too himselves, I could bearly hear him ''No, this got to be a joke... there got to be a camera somewhere... yes, there has to be, it's just a joke, Moon will just wake up again and laugh right at my face... yes, no this can't be treu, it just can't be.'' Heath still spoke softly, but a little louder and faster ''This.... this is just a sick joke... this blood isn't real, these bodies aren't real... I'm not holding Moon's body in my arms, it's just a doll and in a few seconds she'll come from her hinding place.'' he looked around, like he was really thinking he was holding a doll and not Moon's body, I couldn't blame him for that, i would've done the same if it was my sister who got killed by my best friend. ''Yeah, this is just a joke, nothing is treu, maby I'm dreaming, a nightmare, like Moon got them, yes in a few minutes I'll just wake up.'' I turned my head away, I couldn't help it, it was just so sad, Heath was the most caring person I had ever met, he was so protecting to his sister, i don't know if he had bin like that Always, but he has since I know him. ''This isn't treu Heath, It's not, you're dreaming.'' Heath said again, and I couldn't take it anymore, it was too much...
''I'm gonna wake up. Wake up Heath, wake up, you gotta wake up...'' heath kept saying when I walked toward him.
''Heath?'' I wisphered but he didn't seem too hear me he just was talking to himselves ''I'm about too wake up, any second I'm going too wake up.''
''Heath!'' I said louder as I shaked him a little while I was holding his shoulders
''This can't be true.'' he wisphered while he looked down at Moon.
''I'm sorry Heath, I really am.'' I apoligized to him but he shook his head
''Why are you sorry?'' he asked and his voice broke ''You didn't do it, he did.'' as he nodded at Mickey, and I noticed the disguist in his voice, I didn't say anything, and looked at Moon again, I noticed her mounth was a little open, probably because she was talking as she died...
''Thank you James'' I looked at Heath suprised and confused
''For what?'' I asked him, as I still looked at him I saw his face didn't show any emotion, and neither did his voice.
''For being here, and loving Moon, since she broke up with you she couldn't stop think about you, Mickey and I tried to get her think about something else, but she never did. She really loved you James, and I know you loved her the same way.''
I stared at Heath and then at Moon for a while then shook my head ''No, not loved, I still love her, and I'll never stop loving her. Ever.''
We were silent for a while and both stared at Moon's beautiful white face, I, for the first time, saw how much she and her brother looked like each other, same eye colour and shape, smae hair colour, same face shape...
I love you Moon, I'll never forget you, never.  I thought,  I swallowed when I realized tears were rolling down my cheeks again, I had never felt this weak, I had bin so weak today, and not only today, since the day I met Moon, and since the day she met me, I never could have let her go, now I realise how stupid I was too listen too Nikki, too think I actually was into her, I would never be into someonw like I had bin into Moon, and I know she said I had too find someone else, and I would, maby more because Moon said it then I wanted and needed it. I sighed, took Moon's right hand in my hands and kissed it. How could anyone be able to handle this? I lost Moon, probably the love of my life, and I knew a piece of me had died with her, but that didn't was the case of me alone, probably every person who still was alive in this room felt this way.
''Boys, you got too let her go...'' a gentle voice said ''the ambulance can be here any minute...'' I had totally forgotten about the girls, Rose, Cassandra, Olive and Sarah, Sarah had sat up and leaded against the wall, I saw she had a cut in her face, Olive had told us too let Moon go, but I knew I couldn't, and I knew Heath could neither.
''Are you all okay?'' I asked too everyone in the room, but I didn't really listen too their answers, because I thought I saw something move, felt something as I was holding Moon's hand, so I looked at her immedietly, but at the same time I looked at anyone else too see if they had noticed it as well, but it didn't seem like they noticed anyting.
''Moon?'' I wisphered, so softly no one could hear it, at least that's what I thought...
''She is not waking up.'' I wasn't sure if actually anyone said it, or if it was just a voice in head, at this moment anything seemed to be possible.
''You know I want her too wake up just as badly as you want.'' I heard, now I was sure someone said it an it wasn't just a voice in my head, it was Heath.
''She was my little sister, and he... he's m... I trusted him! How could I never have know... I was so stupid!'' he seemed more too talk against himselves then against me.
''No one would have thought this, if you say you were stupid, we all were, don't blame yourself for this, I know it's the first thing you're wanting to do, believe me I have the same, but it's not our fault, it's no ones fault.'' I said, trying too calm down Heath, he didn't say anything, and just stared at his sister,  and he cried, since the first time this night tears rolled down from his eyes and he cried over his sister. I looked down at Moon again, and cried again, but this time it as a silent cry, only tearscame, but I didn't make any sound. Then I wisphered ''I promise Moon'' I promised I ould find someone else, but I also promised her I would never forget her, that she would Always be in my mind, and in my heart so that she would Always be with me, even thought I didn't say that, I did mean it, and I somehow thought or better said knew she heard me and knew what I ment, even tho she was... even tho she wouldn't wake up anymore, I just knew that she knew, maby it was her body that died, but maby her soul is still with us, maby she's still here with us, but we couldn't see her fysically, but maby she was here mentally. I don't know how long I had stared at her face, but suddenly a hand laid on my shoulder.
''Let her go James, I know it's hard, but you have too.'' I knew the voice like no other, so I nodded, but didn't look up because I knew who had said it, I laid the hand of Moon which I was still holding on her chest, as carefully as I could, like I was scared too hurt her, even tho she couldn't feel anymore.
I stood up slowly and turned around too my mom, without really looking at her I hugged her, something I hadn't done in such a long time, and it felt good. i let her go again, and I still wasn't looking at her, I saw suddenly the whole library was filled with people, some were trying too let Heath leave Moon, but they couldn't get him away from her.
''Heath, you got too let her go.'' I said as I walked too him and told him so softly so I would be sure he only would hear it ''Maby it's her body that died, but not her soul, maby she is still here and sees everything.'' he froze for a second, nodded then like I had done, and let Moon go, he stood up, and still looked at Moon, this must be so awful for him, I even can't imagen how it would be if my sister would die, and i didn't know if it would have bin less bad, worse or just as bad as how it felt when Moon died in my arms, and I'd rather not think about it.
I saw how people took Moon's body and brought her too the ambulance, like she would wake up in there or in the hospital.
''Goodbye Moon, I won't break my promise.'' I wisphered again, but this was probably the hardest thing I've ever said, that one word, Goodbye. I've heard saying goobye was hard, i just didn't believe it or ever thought I had too do it, but I was wrong, I had to do it, and it was hard, way harder then you would think...

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