Empty | ( Hayes Grier fanfic )

Chapter 6 | Love hurts

Chapter 6 | Love hurts

Hayes Pov:

I don't know if telling Kris i still love her was a huge mistake but I'm proud of it. I know i messed things up last summer. I thought since its a new year that i would change and fix everything between us but i guess not. 

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Kirsten's Pov:

Now the night is coming to an end
The sun will rise and we will try again
Oooh

Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die
Oooh

I will fear the night again
I hope I'm not my only friend
Oooh

I stopped playing "Truce" on the piano and looked at Chelsea who was sitting on my bed on her phone recording this and putting it on snapchat.

"Kristen that was fucking amazing, I'm so uploading this on youtube." she said

"Don't you even dare or ill tell my mom that those red stains on her carpet are actually period stains from you ." 

We both laughed so hard that chelsea farted and stank up the whole room.

"Gross , really chelsea, i should tell your mom to buy you diape-"

My alarm that i set up earlier to meet up with hayes went off. 

"Its time to meet up with your future husband." chelsea said

"stop it , what should i tell him?"

She shrugged leaving me to let out a deep sigh. I looked at my computer and texted Hayes telling him to meet me at the lake instead.

"Are you going to stay here or go home?"

"Kristen it's 5 am, I'm going back to sleep ."

She took the blanket and went back to sleep.
While, I rechecked the video I recorded, I cracked a smile.
Few minutes later I received a text, it's Hayes.

It read:
"I'm already there, where are you? We need to talk.."

I peeked out my window to see him sitting there with a dozen of roses. Crap.
I ran towards my closet and picked out an outfit.
(Black sweat pants , pink sweatshirt , brown uggs) I tied my hair in a ponytail and ran downstairs.

Stupid me running down the stairs and trying not to wake up my aunt  tripped on zoe's chew toy (my dog) leaving me to fall down the stairs and having chelsea witnessing that.

"Oh my god kris that was so hilarious, do it again!" she whispered 

i gave her the middle finger and went out the door to find hayes with one black rose.

know what you're thinking, black rose? Not romantic. For me it was because no one knew but chelsea that i love black roses.

"is that a black rose?" i smiled

"I Got it for you because i know you like them, you told me you did last summer."

I don't remember that.

"Thank you hayes its beautiful." 

I took the rose and it appear it had a note in it but i pretend not to notice .

"Hayes, the kiss was a mistake, i just don't know what happened. I still care for you but i just can't forgive you."

"I know what i did was wrong and i left you kris. Im really sorry for that but I'm not sorry for saying that i still love you because i do.. i miss you."

There was a lot going on in my mind, i shivered from the cold . Its like 45 degrees.

"You're cold?" hayes said

"No , I'm not"

A huge ass breeze passed and almost blew me away . I put my arms inside my shirt.

Hayes laughed.

"Here take this." He took off his sweater and wrapped it around me like a burrito, suddenly we were close. He looked down at me and leaned in for a kiss but i backed up.

I coughed

"So what did you wanted to say?"

He grabbed his neck and backed away pretending it didn't just get awkward.

"yeah, I know you probably know this but kris i know you don't have feelings for me anymore and thats okay but i love you.  Look what happened last summer i was really stupid for not telling you i was leaving and being with another girl I'm really sorry for that, beverly and i it was a huge mistake that I've done and i regret that."

My mind goes blank, this is like the four hundred time what the actual fuck kris?\

I wasn't going to lie and tell him i didn't miss him , because the truth is i do miss him and thats what scares me the most if i let him in there would be a 40% chance that he would leave again and no other girl can't go through that unless if its chelsea, trust me that bitch is heartless. 

"Kris, you there?"  Hayes waved at my face trying to get my attention

Then i was back and now i found out what i really need.

"Hayes look , to tell you the truth i still love you but i can't forgive what you did because you promised about us being back together but instead you left me , you stopped texting me and the next thing i know you're with another girl that you obviously loved. Look..  what i need now is i need to focus on school and my singing career ,  A lot of bad things has happened to me in the past year and i don't really want to screw it up again like i did last time, i just really hope that we can still be friends."

Half of me felt proud but the other half felt guilty just as he does.

"I dont think thats a good idea kristen." hayes said

"Why not hayes?" 

 "FUCK why is this so hard?" He yelled 

This just went to a whole other levelllll.

It looked like he was crying but it was from the cold.

"What's so hard" i said  

"Loving you, caring about you, thinking about you." Hayes I-." Hayes cut me off

"Hayes stop, please all i really want us is to be friends."

"Thats the thing, we can't." he said

"Tell me the fucking reason hayes, why not?"

"Because if we do i don't think ill ever stop loving you." 

He then got quiet. Hell, i even got quiet . He stared at me for a while and then left without taking his jacket. You had no idea how much i wanted to cry to see the one you love walking away.