More Than Best Friends?...(Jeonghan X S.coups)

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S.coups' POV

'15 days left.....' I muttered as I stared at a picture of me and Jeonghan when we were kids. "I dont know what ill do without you......" I whispered, my eyes filled with tears. I sighed and inserted the picture in my pocket and wiped my tears. Just then someone knocked on the door. "Come in" i replied and the door opened. Seulgi poked her head inside "Doctor Seungcheol...a patient needs you.." She said "which one?" I asked "Yoon Jeonghan.." She replied...I felt like smiling "alright..ill be right there.." I said and she left. 'What does rapunzel want now?' I muttered and chuckled before heading towards Jeonghan's room.

I opened the door and Jeonghan was staring up at the ceiling. "Hannie?..you needed me?." I said, he looked at me and smiled softly. "I just need someone to talk too...its really quite in here..." He said and i nodded. I closed the door behind me and sat down at the edge of Jeonghan's bed "you know what i hate?" He suddenly asked, I looked at him and waited till he finished what he would say "i hate that I have to leave this world soon......i mean....theres a lot of things i wanna do..."He whimpered, i let him continue "why did this happen to me?..." He asked

"I guess im not meant to be in this earth..." He said and sniffed as he cried softly. I couldnt help it, I couldnt stand seeing my best friend like this. It hurts me a lot when Jeonghan says things like this. "Hannie..." I whispered softly as i cried along with my best friend. "I didnt know i would leave all my loved ones behind...."he continued and his eyes getting filled with tears "it makes me feel so left out that a of you can be free....y-you can do whatever you want......w-without any pain or sufferings...."He stuttered and sniffed "ill n-not be able to see Joshua anymore...."

My heart sank down as he mentioned he name Joshua. I didnt know if it was my jealousy that made me cry or Jeonghan's tragic words..Or ot could either be both bur what really bothered me is why did Joshua even have to be mentioned? Sure he is one of my best friends but i still had that jealous feeling whenever Jeonghan talks about him.

"I wanna be free.....n-not being trapped here in this lonely room. I wanna feel like what it is to be normal....not sick. " he whimpered softly, i stared at his face and he wasnt even looking straight at me, he was staring up at the ceiling, tears rolling down his gorgeous face. My eyes got all watery as i imagined what it felt like without Jeonghan.

My heart felt like it was being crushed and my body felt so weak when i looked at Jeonghan. 'Why is this happening?...'i asked myself as i cried quietly, hoping it was all a sad nightmare. "Do you think anyone would care if i..you know..." He said "Hannie, why would you ask me that question?....Im here for you. Thats one stupid question to ask, I wouldnt even be able to sleep if you pass on. I would be so depressed i think id starve myself to death just to be with you up there...." I replied.

We both stayed there in silence as we both continued to cry our eyes out. "Cheollie...if I die, please dont be depressed....i want you to complete your life in whatever you wanna do. You still have a long time ahead of you unlike me.. You can make your dreams come true.....if i had one thing to wish for before i die, I want you to be happy for yourself....." He said and i nodded. Whatever my best friend wishes for, ill do anything to make him happy.

"Hannie..."i whispered "what is it, Cheollie?.." He replied. "I-I....Lov...-" i stuttered, and hesistated but my mind kept telling me not to say it 'forget it, Seungcheol! Whats the point? You'll get hurt in the end, anyways..' I looked down "its nothing..." I lied

"Its really nothing to worry about...."