The past, it's heataches, and happiness

New friend, first time, and something I regret

Tony and me went into my house, knowing since he said he wanted to catch up made me happy, we went up into my room closing the door, I took a seat on my bed and so did he, I then said “so what has it been like without seeing me everyday for about week? Tony smiled and looked at me “lonely and miserable, I kept thinking of you, I was hoping you didn’t get a new boyfriend or a friend with benefits” I just laughed and said “um, no…we were in a pretty serious relationship, you were and still on my mind since, even though its been seven days, it just really hurt to leave you there and break up” I said quietly. Tony leaned in and kissed me deeply, pulling me in, embracing him, and then him placing me on his lap. I was straddling and facing him on his lap, kissing him, adding tongue in the mix. Tony and me made out for a good 30 minutes, it was getting pretty sensual, Tony’s hands went to my shirt and tried to lift it up but I stopped him and pulled back “Tony…you know I’m still waiting” Tony sighed and put my shirt back down and said “waiting for that right moment? I’ve been with you for 2 years when is it going to be the right moment? I want to express my love to you, do you love me? If you loved me you would do it with me...” he said looking me in the eyes. Tony was guilt tripping me into sex, he’s never done this before, I mean he has made me feel guilty about little stuff before, but this was different, of course I replied with “I do love you and…..okay we can do it” in the back of my mind I really did not want to, but I had to push my feelings aside to make him happy.

We picked up where we left off, he took off my shirt and threw it to the ground, I did the same to him, he kissed my lips down my jaw line, throat and then my neck leaving a hickey. I moaned of course, it felt so good, it got me excited also, I started to grow hard, and was a little nervous also. Tony got my clothes off while seductively kissing my body all over, he then got his clothes off, he went over to my door and locked it, then pulling my blinds down over my window and coming back over to me. He went back to kissing me, he kissed my chest and then down my stomach, then my member, he picked it up and started to stroke it slowly, of course I moaned, it felt good, I got harder, he stroked me for a good 3 minutes I moaned a bit, he then took me into his mouth, that felt amazing, this was my first time doing anything sexual related, closes thing I got was making out. He continued to suck me off till I cummed in his mouth, I did the same back to him, I tried my best since I’ve never done it before he moaned and cummed, I swallowed….it tasted good. He got up and grabbed a condom out of his back pocket, at least he was using protection, since he’s been with another guy before he met me, I don’t want to risk a sexually transmitted disease.

He put it on, it was lubricated one so it was fine, he got up by me and gently stuck it in me, it hurt like hell, he thrusted into me, gripped the sheets hard, closing my eyes as he thrusted, after a good two minutes it started to feel amazing, I let out a soft moan, he trusted harder after he seen I liked it. We continued to make love for 25 minutes, he pulled out, when he came in the condom, he leaned down and kissed me saying “I love you” he smiled and got up, getting dressed. I of course laid their wishing I had never done it, I regret it…I wanted to wait, he guilt tripped me…but I agreed to make him happy so I sucked it up and got redressed and fixed my hair, since we were going to go hangout with Jayy. He fixed his hair as well, we went back downstairs, no one was home yet, he grabbed my hand and lead me out side and over to my neighbors house, I knocked on the door, I felt so bad about myself, but I refused to make it obvious so I put a fake smile on, Jayy answered the door “hey guys, come on in” he smiled holding the door open for us, I let go of Tony’s hand and walked in, him following behind and then Jayy. He told us to take a seat on the couch, I did and Tony sat next to me, Dahvie and Sally weren’t here so it was just Jayy and he sat in the recliner across from us. Jayy looked at me and smiled and then at Tony and said “so…how long have you two dated?” he said sweetly, I decided to speak “two years, and we were broken up for week but just got back together” I said to Jayy, Tony put his arm around my shoulder holding me close. Jayy smiled , he seen the fresh hickeys on my neck and frowned a little, and said “I myself got out of relationship, it didn’t end to happy but oh well his loss” he giggled..he had a very cute laugh, unique in its own way..don’t get me wrong Tonys laugh is cute to but Jayy’s was nice.