My Schism

08

Annalyn POV;

I wake up with a jolt. My heart is pounding in my chest and im sweating like an animal . I can't believe what just happened. I just had a dream....Ive never had one.Ever.

It felt so real. I was.... scared. The blond man was abusing my body over and over again. The sound of his revolting laugh makes me cringe.

"Are you okay?" I hear Justin ask. His voice is very husky

Damn

"I- yeah" I say

"Would you like some water?" he asks

I nod and try to calm down. I am safe now.

I need to get out of here.

No

We need to get out of here.

"We need to get out of here" I hoax

Justin hands me a bottle of water and sits besides me on my bed

"We will" he whispers "What happened?"

"I had a dream" I say calmly

"A nightmare?"

"Yeah. Ive never ever had a nightmare or a dream before. I don't dream"

"You were screaming in your sleep" he says as he wraps his arms around my shoulders.I rest my head on his chest because I don't know what else to do.Justins heart is beating really fast.

"Are you okay?" I ask

His heart beats accelerate

"never been better" he chuckles

"You're lucky you know. Some people would kill to feel nothing. I still find my self sad over things that don't matter anymore" he says calmly. His eye brows are furrowed and he's staring at the pole infront of us

This is Interesting

"Like what?"

"I am still inlove with my ex girlfriend"

"What's her name?"

"Selena" he whispers

"Wait, you guys broke up?" I thought they were still together

"Yeah,like 5 years ago" he chuckles "You literally don't watch TV"

"It's a waste of time" I articulate

"Maybe you're right"

"I don't understand love" I blurt

"It's nice"

"Yeah what is it?" I ask

"You feel like" he takes a deep breath" You feel like youre needed.Like if you kill yourself ,someone would miss you.you feel cared for and safe.They make you feel like your life is worth the living " He smiles "love is nice,until they give up on you"

"What happened between you and Selena?" I literally don't even know why I want to know

He sighs "I was going through a hard time. I was suicidal. Angry and alone. I was confused and I needed to make sure she's safe. I started pushing her away and it worked"

"Do you regret it?" I ask

"No. Im glad she walked away"

"Why?,I thought you love her?"

"But I wouldn't want to spend the rest of my life with someone whod give up on me because of my mental illness. Im never going to be better, I just have to learn to deal with it." He whispers. He looks so sad and alone

I get the weird feeling in my stomach again.

"What do your friends do when you're having a bad day?" I ask

Justin chuckles "I don't have any friends Anna"

Anna.

My heart is pounding so hard right now.

"Why?"

"Because people either befriend me for money,fame or to leak everything about me to the media" he sighs

"This must be hard" I whisper

"What about your friends?" he asks

"I don't have friends" I smile

"Why?"

"People think I'm weird" I say simply

I've accepted the fact ages ago.Not that it ever bothered me.

"I don't think you're weird" he smiles

No one has ever said that to me.Ever.

I feel....warm inside if that makes any sense.

"Thanks" I get closer to him if that's even possible and snuggle in his arms.

"Let's sleep" he yawns

"good Idea"

I separate my self from his arms awkwardly and lay on my bed.

AN: I decided Im going to update a couple of chapters today