Deception

Chapter 35: Inside an Insane's Mind

Previously in Deception:

"Why don't you reveal to her Evelyn, everything that you have done out of the goodness of your pure heart hmm? If you love your daughter so damn much then tell her. Tell her everything."

"I'd rather her die than she ever know." My moms whispers in horror, her eyes not meeting mine.

What is going on?

What else is there?

"You are so pathetic Evelyn. You can't even tell the truth in your last minutes."

"Tell her how you knew I wasn't dead. Tell her how you contacted me, tell her of the lie you created!" he says furious.

Instead of looking at my horrific father, she looks at me. "I love you Charlie. You may never understand the things I have done, but I had reason. When you are a mother, I hope you understand. I really do."

Gary huffs. "I will not tell her! This is your sin Evelyn!"

My mom closes her eyes in peace. "Keep me alive if you wish but I will never bury my own daughter in the sorrow I have created."

Gary looks at me for a moment and I don't recognize the look in his eyes.

"Please. Dad. Please." I whisper, the words stinging at my tongue as his gun points straight at my mother's forehead.

Gary smiles. "But Charlotte... you said I would never be your father." And with that last word, I close my eyes because I know that's it.

I know I failed.

Then he pulls the trigger.

~

And this was now only the beginning.

Chapter 35

Hatred is such a strong word right? I mean, people throw it around like it's nothing but that mostly only means that they don't understand the true meaning of "hate." It's ironic; we grow up as children who are just learning the meanings of words like sibling, clock, dog, or any word in that matter. But to this day, do we even really understand those words? Of course, its kind of hard to misinterpret the word dog. You know what a dog is because you just do. But what about the words like love, abhorrence, malice, amity, and even hate? The phrase " I hate you" is thrown around when a little girl doesn't receive a pony for their birthday from her parents or when a teacher doesn't round up someone's grade.

But is that even really hate?

No. It's a stupid phrase that someone threw out of their mouth because they were angry, disappointed. But their heart was not full of hatred. No, of course, not many know what that feels like.

Not...many.

My whole entire life I have said "I hate you" about two times. I said it to my mom when I was six and she wasn't taking me shopping like she had promised. Stupid right? I said it to Ellie, probably when we were younger. Her ongoing teasing and constantly reminding me that I was the younger one threw me off the edge and it just slipped out my mouth.

She took it more harshly than others. I like to think Ellie was a trapped thirty year old in the body of an eight year old. She didn't talk to me for two weeks even when I tried to apologize. Eventually she told me that I was wrong to say that because hate is much more than we all know. I didn't understand this, maybe because Ellie was much smarter than me and quicker to adapt to society or maybe because she wanted me to figure it out now.