It's been 2 years after i last saw Ana. We tried to see each other during spring breaks and holidays. But we just can't. Like fate doesn't want too. There's a lot of reasons: Me not getting a ticket on time, she having extra work during breaks, just like that. Funny right? Like she said before, if we can't see each other for some reason, just do not force it. Let it flow.
I can't really say i moved on from Ana, there some nights i just can't stop myself for calling her. Specially during special days like a very special game, calling her first calm's my nerves. Well she calls when she's not busy. And specially on my birthday. I can't really say I'm happy with our setting right now. I guess we're not old enough to handle long distance relationships, no matter how hard we try.
I can't really say i don't love Ana anymore. Well because sometimes, when she calls, i still need to stop my self from crying. Because i really miss her so much. More that words can express. I just pre occupy myself with school works and football games. Being busy helps a lot.
I can't really say I'm not hurtting, Actually I am very hurt. Specially seeing sweet couples, i always wish it was us. Hugging, kissing, cuddling, like what we used to do before. I tried to date. But i guess I'm not ready to replace Ana, cause maybe i always look for her traits to every girl i met. I't just doesn't work. I wonder if Ana start dating someone, I can't ask her, probably I'm too afriad she might say yes.
I just don't really know what's are status right now. I know i still love her, I know she knows. She told me she loves me too, but i guess saying i love you through phone calls is not enough. Really not enough. We ones talked about being together after college, but i guess all we can do is wait and see.
I'm hurt, I miss her alot, I still do love her. Sometimes i wonder, why do we need to be separated? What kind of joke fate threw on us? Meeting the love of your life then loosing her along the way?
What if i did't accept the scholarship and study somewhere near to her, or vise versa. I wonder if things will be easier between us.
What if i just never met her.
There's a lot of What if. Maybe i should just wait and see what will happen next
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Teen FictionLove is really magical. Its strikes when you least expected, It can even change you perspective in life. It can change people. But what do you do when you fall madly in love then suddenly, you need to let go. Just like that. Will you wish you never...
