I knew it was too good to be true. I have no luck. It's been raining ever since I've gotten here. I just want to scream. Someone take me away. I'm a monster. I'm insane. I don't deserve happiness. Or anyone. I deserve pain and sadness. It's who I am. fUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK. Of fucking course everyone else can have who they want. But I can't have worth shit. Everyone hates me, don't they? Hurt me, use me. I want you to. Because, maybe, just maybe, I'm a masochistic fuck
