Not What I Want, But What I Need

Chapter 7:Why Does He Care?

I had walked to a close buy bus stop well on the phone with Shane. I told him what street I was on and luckily he knew of the area.

"Alright I'll be right there, be careful and don't move" I could hear a lot of rustling going on in the background, I heard some keys jingling and a door shut. "Do you want me to stay on the phone with you until I get there?" another door slam.

"No it’s dangerous, talking on the phone well driving, I'll just be waiting" roaring engine.

"Ok I'll be there as soon as possible bye"

"Wait! Shane?"

"Yeah?"

"Thanks” Silence. Screeching tires. Beep.

I slowly took the phone down from my ear and placed it in my bag. It was freezing out and my body started to go numb, it matched how my brain was in the moment. Numb. Why would Richard act like that? He was being so sweet and- I stopped thinking and let out a loud sigh and tugged at my hair. I ran my fingers through it trying to distract myself. I kept replaying everything in my mind, was it my fault? Are girls just accustomed to give it all up on the first date? No no no that doesn't sound right. He tried to force himself on me isn't that illegal?

I was going deeper into my thoughts and started thinking about my past, there was a loud roar coming down the street I jumped a little but kept my eyes on the sidewalk. I haven't moved from this position since I sat down.

There was a voice talking to me but the words were gurgled like they were in a fish bowl or something. I couldn't comprehend what they were, but then I felt someone touching my face they put there fingers under my chin and tilted my head to face them. Shane. He was looking deep into my eyes but I couldn't really see him. I felt a warmth over my arms, he had put his jacket over me. I still didn't move so he picked me up wedding style and placed me in the passenger seat. he leaned in close and I started to panic this couldn't happen twice in one night. I snapped out my state and was going to scream when I heard a slight click. He pulled away and closed my door.

He was buckling me seat belt. My eyes followed him go to the other side of the car and get in. He got in and immediatley met my gaze.

"Mia?"

"Yeah?" I mumbled out, I could still feel the alcohol in my system.

"What happened?" he had the most serious look of concern on his face. I didn't want to tell him, I didn't want to tell anyone not even Selena, but I knew she'd be waiting at home for me to give her every distinguishing detail. I wanted to cry.

"You've already done so much for me and you barely even know me but can I ask you just one more favor?" he seemed a bit upset I was dodging his question be nodded reluctantly .

"Anything" a small forced smile appeared on his face.

"Can I stay with you tonight?" he seemed a bit taken aback by my request but nodded. He started the car and we drove in silence. I'm not sure what was in that wine but it still hadn't worn off, maybe I should have held on the alcohol for a while. I hadn't noticed that I was giggling and hiccupping, gosh is this guy ever not going to see my drunk or hung-over? We came to a halt in front of a small apartment building, so he lives in apartment. Classy.

He walked to my side of the car and opened the door, this time when he went for my seatbelt I kissed him on the cheek. He unbuckled it and pulled back quickly. He looked at me his cheeks tinted pink. Awe.

"Can you walk? Or do you want me to carry you?" I felt as though a little kid as I stretched my arms out and reached for him. He shook his head and smiled. he picked me up and I wrapped my arms around his neck and curled into his body he smelt amazing his hair was damp and I could tell that’s where the sent was coming from. When we got inside his apartment I had very uncomfortable Deja vu.

"Can I sleep on your couch?" he just nodded and walked a few more steps before putting me down. He bought me a big glass of water a pillow and some blankets.

"Drink that whole glass of water, the bathroom is just right there if you need it ok?" I nodded and started at the water. I honestly hate drinking water because it goes right through me but he's done so much for me I might as well listen. I chugged the whole thing and he took the cup to the kitchen. I set my pillow and blanket up feeling a bit more sober. "I'm going to go to bed ok? Do you need anything else?" I shook my head and laid down pulling the blanket over me.

"Thank you Shane" I whispered as I close my eyes I could feel him hovering over for minute before he left, and I heard a door close. I fell asleep quickly but woke up about 20 minutes later for 3 reasons 1)it was extremely cold 2)my tight cloths reduced comfort and 3) My bladder was about to explode!

I jumped up rubbed my eyes and made my way to the bathroom. After relieving myself I flushed the toilet as quietly as possible, which didn't because it's impossible. I chose to wash my face of mascara so it wouldn't be there in the morning. I had 1 of three things accomplished to return back to sleep. I looked at my clothes I was now only wearing the skirt and tank top. I could take them off but that wouldn't help with the cold. Instead I just decided to look for more blankets and ignore my need for comfort. I opened the only other door in the hallway, which didn't lead to a closet but Shane’s room.

I slowly walked in, since when did I become brave? The shirt he had been wearing laid discarded on the floor, well he's not using it... I looked at him, he was lying on his back with one hand behind his head and his other arm across his stomach. Shirtless. Of Course.

I walked over to the shirt that laid next to his bed. I glanced at him, his eyes seemed to be closed. Might as well. I took off my shirt and skirt and slid his shirt on, it went to my knees. I was comfortable now at least. But I hated being cold. I looked back at Shane. I bet he's warm.

Without thinking twice I slid underneath the covers beside him. Warmth radiated from his body and couldn't help scoot in closer to him to where our skin touched. I took in the scent that was starting to become oh so familiar, but I was startled as he turned on his side and draped an arm over me, pulling me closer. My breath hitched when I realized how close we were that our foreheads were pressed against each other. He opened his eyes and smiled at me. I almost wanted to hit him! Almost.

"You were awake? The whole time?" he smiled and rolled his eyes.

"Not the whole time, just when someone flushed the toilet, walked in and stole my shirt" I blushed though I don't think he could tell,

"Does this mean you watched me change?" he kept quiet and I could tell he was guilty. "Pervert"

"At least I don't sneak into other peoples beds"

 "Touché" I laughed but became serious "Does this mean I have to leave?" I frowned making a sad puppy face.

 "Not necessarily, one night shouldn't hurt anybody" His smile shone even in the dark light. I returned the smile, curled up into his body and closed my eyes. I was slowly falling to sleep when a felt a warm peck on my cheek "Don't thank me, you're worth it".

 I don't know if what he said was real or I was already asleep and dreaming. But I was wondering why? Why does He care so much?