artificial love [ kji ]

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i wake up in the middle of the night and see the living room's lights still on. i walk there in my half-awake state and see jongin watching a movie.

he pauses the movie and looks at me for a while, and we keep the contact for a while before he turns back to the movie and says quietly, barely audible, as though as he is unconfident. unsure. confused.

"leave me alone and go to sleep, princess."

princess. when was the last time he called me that? it feels like i haven't heard that nickname for days, or even weeks or months, since he's preoccupied with girls.

i wonder what shoes it will be tomorrow?

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"where are you going?" he asks and i bit my lip.

"movie theatre. yeah," i said, agreeing to the reason. though all of this is a lie.

"when does the movie start? and ends?" he asks further, and i know what he means.

"how long will you be gone for? how long will i have the time to play with other girls?"

"it starts at 2pm and ends at 4pm." i answer, hands shaking.

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