This is wrong. It's been months since Abel left and the hole in your chest still won't go away. You've been going out with Mason to try and fill it, but he's just not enough. You can't keep using him. You still miss Abel.
"Babe!?" Mason calls from downstairs. You finished getting dressed in whatever you could find that was clean and run downstairs to meet Mason.
"About time", he laughs when you make it down.
"Sorry I was just thinking", you say trying to avoid making eye contact, he would probably be able to tell you've been crying. He examines your outfit then gives you a look.
"Are you sure you're dressed for the club, babe?"
You look down at what you're wearing. Some dark green sweatshirt that you had no idea you even have, and a pair of black jeggings. Ugly.
"Do you have a problem with the way I dress?"
"No no! I love the way you dress babe, uh, do you alright, sorry" He steps past you quickly and opens the door for you. You have no idea how you're going to break up with him. But you can't go on using him.
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You look like shit, which definitely makes you stand out from everybody else in the club. You've been to many clubs before but for some reason you just feel uncomfortable. And the music is making your head hurt. Mason grabs one of your hips from behind and aggressively fist bumps with the other behind you. You roll your eyes and look for somewhere to hide. Up there. The landing on the far side of the club has its lights turned off, meaning nobody is there. You just need a way to escape Mason.
"Hey, Mas?" You turn to him,"Could you get me a drink?"
"Yeah, sure. What do you want?"
"Surprise me" You give him a fake smile before he turns and shoves his way to the bar. Okay. GO.
You push your way through the crowd to the landing, ducking under the rope at the start of the stairs and running the rest of the way up. You sit on one of the lounge chairs that you can barely see and look around on the floor for Mason. You spot him looking around in the spot you left him with two drinks in his hand. Oops.
You try to relax now but something is giving you a strange feeling. Like you're not alone. It's impossible to see up here, you stand up and quickly run off the landing, because you're a pussy. You don't want to go back to Mason though, and he's right in front of the doors. You'll have to sneak out back. You walk along the wall to a hallway that leads to the exit of the club, you take one look back at Mason who is on his phone right now, probably calling you. Jokes on him. You left your phone at home. You exit the club and start walking. The problem now is, you have no idea where the fuck you are or where the fuck you're going. Just walk, you tell yourself.
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You end up walking for about an hour, you stop and look around. No idea where the fuck you are right now. No phone to call anybody to come get you. No money so if somebody comes to rob you they'll see you don't have shit and rape you instead. Welp. This is fine.
You continue walking and take a left at the end of the street. There's a person dressed in all black smoking a cigarette in front of an apartment building down the block. You look around for any other direction to go in but change your mind. If you get raped then maybe Abel will find out and be angry and get revenge then come back into your arms. You're an idiot. You'd risk getting raped just for the small chance that Abel will come back to you..? Yes. You walk forward trying to think of a way to make yourself look a bit vulnerable. As you get closer to the person you see the familiar leather jacket. The hair. The way they pace a bit while the smoke. It's Abel. A thousand different emotions hit you at once and you freeze about five feet away from him. He stumbles a bit as he drops his cigarette on the ground then starts to spin towards the apartment. He freezes halfway when he sees you. You prepare yourself for whatever is about to happen and promise yourself you won't cry. He lifts his chin giving you a huge smile and waves like a dork. You stare back shocked. He's drunk. Really drunk.
"Haaaaayyyyy youuu", he says, wobbling towards you. "Been a minute" He laughs when he reaches you, throwing his head back. He puts a hand on your shoulder and leans heavily against you. "Why, *hiccup* why are youuuu" -he pokes your chest as he says you- "out.... heeerrrreeee."
"Um..." Speechless. You're completely speechless. You've never seen Abel so drunk before. You don't even think Abels ever been this drunk before. You look at his face, he looks like he hasn't slept in forever and you can tell just by looking at him that he's been doing some heavy drugs.
He rolls his eyes and leans in closer to you, "I said-"
"No, shut up, I heard what you said", you cut him off. You need to get him inside, it would be bad for his image if paps caught him like this.
"Then answer me. Puh", he says closing his eyes and shaking his head.
"What did you do to yourself?" He looks terrible. But still somehow manages to be cute as hell. "Where are the boys."
Abel looks around in thought for a minute before turning back to you, "I told them to... to leave me alone. Because I was really, really depressed and..." He trails off stumbling backwards. Shit he's about to pass out. You quickly run forward and catch him, putting his arm around your shoulder.
"Let get you inside", you say to him dragging him towards the apartment doors.
"Okieeeeee", he sings. Keys, where's his keys? You check his jacket pockets, nothing. You check the pockets on his jeans. Bingo. You reach into his pocket and grab the key. "Woah, whachu tryna find down there babygirl", Abel chuckles. You roll your eyes and open the door.
"What floor?" You ask him as the door closes behind you.
"We can do it on this floor if you know what I mean, hehehehe", he says attempting to wink.
"No, you idiot, what floor are you staying on."
"Pshh, five... duhhh."
You push him into the elevator, of course Abel would be staying on the top floor. He hates being beneath people because you can always hear them walking around above you. Once the elevator reaches the top floor you push him out and look through his pockets for his room key.
"Hay g-guess what", Abel says loudly, laughing a bit. You shush him, finding his key and looking at the number on it, room 34.
"Guess wha- what", he repeats.
"Shhh, what!?" You whisper back.
"Guess what door that key opens", he chuckles.
"The key to your room", you reply starting to pull him down the hall.
"Hehe, no, hehehe" He chuckles,"It's the key to, to, it's the key to this DICK", he yells then starts laughing hysterically.
"Oh my God, shut the fuck up!" You open his room door and push him in, closing it behind you. Where's the bedroom? Fuck it he can sleep on the couch. You pull him into the living room area and take his jacket off. He's wearing a black T-shirt which makes him look really cute. Fuck, pay attention. You drag him over to the couch and push him onto it.
"Time to fuck", he says spreading his arms out. You ignore him and look at the table beside the couch, which has about seven different fucking drugs laying around all over it. Beside the couch on the ground is an empty bottle of Hennessey. Abel yawns and closes his eyes, taking a huge breath before saying, "You know" -he pauses- "I, psh, I really got upset about *hiccup* what you did."
You can feel tears gathering up in your eyes, you blink them away and look back at Abel.
"Because" -pause- "I really, heh, I really loved your ass. But then you had to go and be a lame" -he pauses searching for a word- "biotch."
He opens his eyes and gives you an equally sympathetic and disgusted look, "Why are you crying?" You quickly wipe away the tear you didn't even notice falling down your face.
"Sorry", you laugh slightly.
After a few minutes he looks up at the ceiling and says more to himself than to you,"Why? You fucked up, you cheated on me and broke my fucking heart after I told you I loved you, you lied to my face, you played me... So why?... Why do I miss you so much?" You begin to cry. Tears fall uncontrollably down your face, you turn away and try to wipe your tears away but the hole in your chest keeps forcing them out. Suddenly you notice Abel standing in front of you. You look up at him and he wipes away one of your tears. "I still love you" He whispers.
To Be Continued...
