I wasn't tagged for this. I am thankful my friends weren't tagged either because they all deserve so much love.
The reason I'm doing this tag, is because I want everyone to know me more: the bad things, and the good things everyone already knows. I know this tag is usually taken as a joke and not seriously. But I really wanted to get it off my chest.
First of all. I want to talk about my personality.
For anyone who doesn't know me personally or hasn't been in real contact with me, I might appear as someone "childish", "hyper", "immature" and so on. To be honest, this is mostly fake.
Because I needed a change, a fresh new beginning, I adopted a fresh personality too. What is not fake, however, is the words I say. It's hard for me to be positive at all times, because even the bluest skies have clouds. But that doesn't mean I'm lying when I say I love myself, or when I say I love others. I'm not as childish as I appear. I just prefer not to be falsely mature. Of course I'm immature! I have yet to grow as a person, I have yet to build up a stronger character. And of course I'm hyper, it's because people are so focused on being sad, I try my best to focus on being happy.
So yes. At times, I am the fakest person you will ever meet.
I get sad, angry, frustrated and hurt. I am human, I have feelings and they get hurt a lot too.
But it doesn't mean I won't try my hardest to be the person I want to be everyday.
Next topic: Positivity in Excess
I know, I'm sappy and extremely sentimental. I post a lot of things that make little to no sense and I go around on people's boards telling them how much I like them. I know, it seems like I'm trying to get up their asses to get what I want.
I'm not. If you're sad, if you're stressed, then I won't make a competition out of this. I will try to cheer you up even if it means I have to be stupid. It's my nature, it's who I want to be and what I wish for everyone. Remember I created a hashtag? #LoveCreatesLove was a very important thing to me. Because this life has been so contaminated by anger and hate, I wanted to make a difference.
But I can be rotten, too. I can be a shitty friend, I can make you feel betrayed.
Exposing, three.
I'm a terrible person. I will rant to you about my friends because I'm too scared to say things to their face. What am I scared of? Hurting them? Doesn't it hurt more when you realize you've been talked about behind your back?
Then it's only me acting like I'm the victim. Then, it's only me being bratty and heartless. I just wanted to be heard.
I just wanted to let people hear me. To be someone who could listen. To be someone who could read your messages and offer you solutions, not compete with you.
I failed greatly. I hold my heart in a tall pedestal, too tall at times. My pride, my so called sentimentalism, it will end me someday.
Forgive me, for not being enough. The person you see is pitiful too. I am a closet monster too.
I will make you feel like a terrible person, when that person is me.
Exposing, four.
My writing. If there's a reason it's not read, it's because it reflects me too much. I am each and every word that leaves my mouth. I am every key my fingers press. I am the hateful characters and the main character and the background ones.
This is just one big diary, and I'm just a kid trying to find someone who can understand.
Aeternum? A mirror.
Sturm Und Drang? A wish.
Eternally Shining? A fear.
I am this selfish, to make everything about me.
[More exposing on part two if this tag]
