Poems

WALK ALONE

Walk Alone

Life now has its ups and downs
But all we seem to get is its downs
People everywhere are filled with hate
Teens, Parents Complete strangers
The pain others feel always seems to make its way to me

The drugs take it all away
But only for a little while
For soon it will come with its own problems

The thoughts of suicide will begin
And to feel better or even feel anything at all
A shining blade will slide across my skin

Mental health has gone down the drain
A life controlled by depression and anxiety
Wanting to do something but a voice in the back of my head saying i'll do it wrong
Answering a question wrong in class, The faces of the ghouls turn and laugh

A crow sings daily in a graveyard of broken dreams
For every person that has turned me down
Every person that has pointed and laughed
Every person that has talked behind my back
They don't see

They don't see the girl that is alone and afraid
They don't see the late nights spent falling asleep on a tear drenched pillow to the sound of my weeps
They don't see the scars

They see the smile but don't see they eyes
They hear the laughs but don't hear the force
They see a happy girl but not what she's hiding
So deep inside she won't let others see

Unsure of life
With nowhere to go, no one to ask
In a home with parents who just don't understand
Close to being sent away

And harassment starts
Coming from guys
Why is it sexual?
The words that sting
The words that scare my friends away

I lash out
And feel like the light at the end of my tunnel
Has been extinguished by everyone around me
Placing a hurdle in my slow desperate walk

I don't walk alone
I walk with the demons that grab me
I walk past the people who shove me down
So in a way i don't walk alone

I walk alone with no one beside me
No One standing up for me or helping me
And to walk down a tunnel full of people and still feel completely alone
Is when you know that you are truly alone

By everyone who didn't care
By everyone who laughed
By everyone who couldn't see past the fakeness

All of this and yet
Something has kept me fighting
The bands and the music
They gave me strength
They made me fight and saved me from myself
They didn't let me drown

I can dissapear
Into book, and movies, art, and music
I can create a new world in my mind and escape
And when i come back from those places i will be at peace, content happy
Happy to know that there are millions of other men and women
Who are just the same as me
Who listen to the music they listen to
And who act the way they act because it makes them happy
And it drags them out of that battle

A cycle that never ends
To be caught in a downward spiral impossible to get out of
Constantly people shatter me rip me to shreds
But with each time that i am torn down i can build myself higher
I become stronger
For each challenge is preparing you for the ones ahead

                                                                                                               -Alison Commet