I am Harley (completed)

It feels so lonely

I got home and didn't want to eat anything I layed on j's bed and hugged his pillow my best friend from school rang my phone a couple of times to ask how I was we hadn't talked in so long
H: hello.
Jo: hi it's Josie from school
H: oh my god I miss you
Jo: me too where do you live now ?
I told her where I lived and she came to visit me , I had explained everything to her being pregnant j being in the hospital everything exept,
Jo: so your parents are okay with all of this?
H: Josie my parents got killed when we moved to Louisiana
Jo: I'm so sorry Harley
H: it's okay... Anyway im going to get to bed
Josie then proceeded to leave and one of the boy took her home it was nice to see her again, she's still in school though everything has changed so much in life, I guess I should have stayed at school but then I would have never met my beautiful baby boy, even though I don't think we are actually ever going anywhere in life, eventually he will get bored and throw me away, he will find a new girl and forget all about this, all the trouble I've caused him and then if he left me then he wouldn't have to care for the baby. Maybe it would be better ...
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I woke up 7 days later I had forced myself to sleep that long because I didn't want to be awake without j *knock knock* "come in"
J: hey baby
H: j your home
J: yes I'm sorry I took so long, I had to wait for all'a that info to come through, Harley cupcake why are you cryin
H: oh puddin I'm so happy your home never scare me like that again
J: I won't I promise
I ran up to him and gave him the biggest hug possible and he kissed me we didn't let go, I never wanted to let go but I hadn't eaten for over a week and I was getting really ill and kinda skinny, plus I have to feed this baby that's if it's actually alive right now.
J: I'm going to the kitchen, do you need anything?
H: food
J: I don't cook, but for you I'll try my hardest.
J left  the room and I got changed, I had the smallest stomach in the world but it had started forming into a baby bump but the rest of me was skinny... Really really skinny the night I got home from the hospital after visiting j I had cut myself so I had a lot of cuts on my body and that's why I had waited for j to leave the room before I had taken off my clothes. I had made his bed and tidied his room before he came back with food, well he had made chocolate chip pancakes but it's still food, I ate them so fast . "I'm guessing mummy and baby are very hungry" j said with a concerned look on his face "me too j" I replied trying to make him happy I didn't understand why he was so concerned but then again I do. With batman always being on our case and all of the other villains it's never really as safe as we would want it to be... And with the baby as well it's going to be even worse... I had started getting scared
That night j didn't leave me unless he needed to go to the bathroom but even then he made me stand outside the bathroom door since he had got back the only time he had left was to get food. I felt like he was hiding something. Could we be in danger... He had only just come out of hospital and now he's acting like this... On the other hand though he could just be showing that he meant what he said in the hospital you know he could just be showing and proving that he loves me and maybe we are just making up for lost time. At least I hope that's the reason for him bring like this.

Not part of the story: I can't believe so many people are voting for this/I'm getting votes and people are liking it... I'm sorry if this part is kinda boring I'm just thinking of how to make it the best it can be. If anybody has any suggestions of things that could happen in the next few chapters either message me or just comment and I'll take it into consideration ... Thank you everybody that has been reading my story so far depending on how many chapters I write I might be uploading every day or something.