Dead As FUCK |Motionless In White||Ricky Horror|

Disarm Me With Your Loneliness

{Chloe}

I stayed up crying all night. My eyes burn, I have a huge headache, and my sinuses are swollen. I drank a lot of camomile tea just to make it better but it didn't.
I took a quick shower so I could walk Dexter. I wasn't really in the mood to look pretty today so I just threw on some jeans and a black shirt. I slid my vans on then I took Dexter out for a walk.

Once we came back I fed him. I didn't feel like eating, I'm too depressed to eat. I left the kitchen and sniffled.

What is wrong with me??

I walked to the living room and walked past a mirror. I walked back to the mirror and looked at my red,puffy,swollen,eyes. I look terrible.
I continued walking to the living room and sat on the couch. I turned the tv on and Dexter played before my eyes.
I sat there for a while and watched that.

I sniffled a little then I thought of Ricky. He loved this show.
A tear fell down my cheek. I didn't want to cry anymore but they fell by themselves.

I grabbed the couch pillow and hugged it. Dexter sat next to me on the couch with his carrot.
I patted his soft fur as he laid his head on my leg.
I noticed that he's grown a little, he's gotten bigger.
I got up and walked into the kitchen. I looked at the wine bottle that Gaia bought me. I only drank one time in my life and I got shit faced drunk. That was the first and last time I ever drank alcohol. Ever since, I've been avoiding it...until now...
I grabbed a wine glass from my cabinet and washed the dust off of it then I grabbed the bottle and opened it.
I walked to the living room with the bottle and glass and drank little by little.

The doorbell rang twice then they knocked three times.
I sniffled then I got up to open the door. I wiped my eyes as I unlocked it.
I opened the door to see Ricky. His eyes were red and puffy like mine. He had his keys in his hands then he gripped them tightly.

"Doesn't feel very good crying all night." I sniffled.

He stepped closer then wrapped his arms around me.

We stayed like that for about a minute or so.

"I'm sorry." He said while kissing the top of my head.
I closed the door behind him.
"C'mon." I said quietly while grabbing his hand. I led him to the living room then we sat down on the couch.

"Chloe..."

I looked at him.
His eyes got watery.
"I don't ever want to argue wit you again.." He sniffled.
Tears fell down his cheek.

"Ricky...it's fine.." I said while gently laying his head on my shoulder.
I slid my fingers through his hair and played with it.
"We both said things that we didn't mean...I didn't mean to kick you out like that.." I said while pressing my lips against his head.

"I-I just feel like I screwed everything up between us..." Ricky sniffled.

"Rick. I'm pretty sure you didn't, everything that's between us is still here...isn't it??"

I looked at the wine sitting on the coffee table.
"I didn't know you drink..." He sniffled.

I looked down at him.
"I-I don't..."

It was silent.

"Do you want some?" I asked.

"I don't drink." He sniffled.

"Well, I didn't drink before but I guess things change..." I sighed.
Ricky reached over then grabbed the wine bottle and took a huge swing of it.

"You're very persuasive...and that was really good."
We both chuckled.
I finished the last of the wine that was in the glass.

"Where did you get wine if you don't drink??" He asked.

"Gaia gave it to me for my birthday"

He took another swing of wine.

"I already feel buzzed." He smiled.

"Same."

We both chuckled then drank more wine.
"I heard that people get more drunk when they drink with straws." Ricky said slowly. I laughed then I opened another wine bottle.

We were both drunk off of our asses.

"I-I...umm..." I looked at him.
"I never heard of that before." I chuckled.

He scoffed.

"Do...Do you think we'll ever be in a real relationship?..." He slurred.

I looked at him.
"I think so...I'm just afraid of being hurt again.." I said slowly.

"I would never...ever,ever,ever,hurt you.."
His face was only centimeters from mine and his breath smelt like black cherries and butterscotch from the wine. 

I giggled. I don't know why? But I did.

I gently brushed my bottom lip against his then we both went in for the kiss.
He made out for about a minute then we pulled away.
I stood up and so did he and we both headed for the stairs and giggled,and tumbled all the way up to my room.
Ricky closed the door behind him as I made my way to the bed.

He kicked his shoes off and so did I.
He struggled to take his jacket off and we both chuckled.
I unbuttoned my pants and fell over on the bed trying to get them off.

I giggled then Ricky pulled them off for me.
He hovered over me,shirtless then I wrapped my bare legs around his waist and slid my hands up his chest.
He slid my shirt off then we both chuckled.

"I guess Lacy underwear do come in handy..." He slurred with a smile.

I pressed my lips against his.

"I love you." The words slurred out of my mouth like a snake.
But I'm too drunk to realize.

I pulled Ricky's pants off then things went on from there.