SEND EMOTICONS

Part 6

Throwing you Away

"HI. are u fine now? thank u for replying, i was waiting for u'r reply since the day i post the letters. u even can't imagine how much I'm happy today, u know i receive the letter today. and u know i didn't tell this to mummy ji and papa ji. they will surely asked more about u, and i receive very less from u. but don't worry ha I'll taking care of them very well. sumit is in 12th standard now. u know mummy ji says he looks like u'r grand papa. i hope u remember him. we all are good here. you are good na over there? sorry meri buri English k liye. thora thora sikh rahi hu na avi. sumit parha ta he mujhe rat ko jab mummyji or pap ji so jate he. apko pata he me bohot acha dal bati churma banaleti hu avi,pehele pehele to jala deti thi,par mummy ji ne mujhe achese sikhaya. avi to unse vi acha banaleti hu. mummy ji bolti he. yeha pe sab apko bohot yad karte he. mummy ji, papa ji, sumit,apki dost sab. or me vi. apko hum sav yad to he na?

are me vi kaise budhu jaise bolne lagi. maf kardo. please gussa mat hone.

app gussa to nhi ho gaye ne? app kahonge to me itna nhi likhungi letters pe. par apse bat karne ka man kar rahahe kya karu? please reply jarur dijiyega. kyu ki me firse wait karti rahungi post office k bahar. apki Sanyukta :-)

sumit told me what are these ':-)'

its so sweet.. keep sending me this along with the letters. may be it's the indication of u'r face to me know. but always keep smiling sweetly like the Emoticons u send last time.

Do reply

And

Come back soon,I'm waiting"

randhir folded the letters and place it beside his pillow looking at the window in-front of him. it's almost the time of sun set. the dark night is capturing the whole sky and covering the sun behind the horizon. calming that it's their time now,sun have to sleep now. he lazily came near the window and stand there everyone is resting now the room is quite than before, some soldier's are chit chatting about the last fight. he looked at the end toward the horizon thinking about nothing but his mind chattering a name all the while 'sanyukta'

"what are u doing randhir? this is all so wrong. u are writing instead of his husband. may be she was writing to her husband and u just replying her. what if he was already dead by now in some war or caged in some unknown jail for years. there are lots of soldier who die being caged in unknown jail in some other countries. but how could u just write her down like that, keeping faith of his returning. the more u response the more she keep faith of his returning. u just can't play with some one's emotion like this. this is so wrong. so wrong. u are not a homeseaker that doesn't mean u just play with the feelings of someone else.. don;t do it to her. she is not writing to u, she is writing to her husband who marry her 10yrs ago in her childhood. and her husband is in army too, may be in other dept,or a regular soldier maybe. u are not the one who should think about it. don't think about it much. let it be. "rd's sub conscious mind told him and some how he agree with it. its not his responsibility to keep promises instead of some other person who didn't wrote his wife since last 10 yrs. he is not a social worker . he is just randhir a soldier of Army. just Randhir who have no one in his life.

he return back to his bed and sit as his knees are paining yet not healed by the medicine completely. he looked at the pillow side where the letter is placed,and remember the line

'I'm Waiting'

'Do Reply please'

those immature handwriting is coming in-front of his eyes. why so attractive? what is hidden there in that letters the immature writing skills, the simple story of her life. the simple words. why he keep thinking of the writings over again?

he close his eyes and turn around being irritated a little. he feel frustrated due to this. he never face this kind of situation ever, a dual fight in mind and heart. he does not like this feeling. so he decide to throw the things which is bothering his mind this way. he took the letters and fold it in a small page and walk upto the dustbin to throw it out. and he just did that. he just throw the letters on dustbin and return to his bed peacefully. ly on bed taking deep breaths close his eyes, he need to calm down his mind. he have to be calm down. anger is not good for him now, not for some silly letters. so he close his eyes when sleep came forgetting about the letters he just throw away, unaware of the situation that the letter is already printed on his heart how could he throw his heart away from himself????