Affection 2

Part 8

Loki and Luna put their clothes back on –with some difficulty, actually. They couldn’t keep their hands off of each other- and entered the Great Hall once more, but with a few wiggly eyebrows from Thor and Fandral; Sif, Frigga, and Odin had their attention on a sleepy Solene, lying down on her grandmother’s shoulder as she sucked her thumb.

Luna blushed, avoiding their teasing eyes with Loki’s hand wrapped around her waist. He sat down and saw his brother and friend’s face. A smirk appeared on his face as he said, “You know, as you make those childish faces, you forget that I participate in more sexual activities in a day than you do in a week.”

Loki’s grin grew wider as his brother and friend’s faces turned a light pink, Fandral started to cough from embarrassment. Luna slapped her husband on the arm lightly and sat down alongside him.

“Loki! Don’t say such things like that!” She stifled a laugh just by looking at her friends’ shocked faces and embarrassed faces.

Loki just shrugged. “I can’t help if it’s true, Luna.”

She laughed as she turned around to look at her mother-in-law, rocking Solene to sleep; the Queen’s face was soft with so much affection. Luna wondered if that was the same face she used when comforting Loki as a child; a smile grew on Luna’s face imagining a child version of her husband following his mother around.

Odin’s face was, surprisingly the same; soft and loving, the way a parent’s face is supposed to be towards a child. Luna surely thought that he still loved Loki if he loved Loki’s child and she wanted Loki to know that.

Luna bit her lip as she took her next course of action.

“Odin, Loki would like to talk to you...alone.” Odin’s head turned as fast as it could without breaking it when his daughter-in-law semi shouted her statement, nervousness overcoming her as to what her repercussions would be.

Her father-in-law’s face went from Luna’s, and then to Loki’s, who wasn’t even looking at the Allfather; he eyes were locked on his wife’s profile. Luna could feel the burn of his eyes when she painstakingly turned her head around towards him very slowly; his bright green eyes were full of anger and fright. She turned back to Odin and Frigga, and as soon as she looked at the Queen she got the message.

The Queen got up, cradling Solene carefully and walking briskly, everybody else followed her and Luna followed suit…until Loki grabbed her wrist. She tried to let go, but he had a vice-like grip on her wrist. Luna turned to her husband and she stopped trying to let go, for she saw the look in his eyes; now they were screaming. They were screaming ‘Please don’t leave me. Please, darling.’

Luna bent down and kissed him on the forehead softly, bending down even further and whispering, “You thank me later.”

Loki’s grip went limp from Luna’s whisper and he watched as she walked out of the room, her light footsteps echoing along with the giant thud of the door.

And now, there was silence…

..Silence with his dear old dad.

Loki looked down and fiddled with his hands as Odin stroked his beard mindlessly.

“Luna is a beautiful woman, Loki.” Loki raised an eyebrow at Odin, his voice echoing throughout the gigantic space.

He nodded at the statement. “Yes, she’s the love of my life, Odin. That’s why I married her.”

“And Solene is beautiful too. She looks like both of you.” Odin looked at his son. “You’ve done me proud, son.”

The Jokester god scoffed. “Now, that is a first.”

“What do you mean, Loki?”

For the first time since he got into Asgard, he looked at his father dead in the eye. “Do you want to know another reason why I married Luna? It’s because she was the first person who ever showed me any emotion besides that of disgust and disappointment! Luna made me feel accepted. She showed me friendship and she showed me love. Oh gods, she showed me that I can be loved and that I can love someone else; she made me feel so warm and she made me feel incredibly happy, which I didn’t think was possible because of you.” His eyes narrowed at his father.

The halls rang with Loki’s anger and Odin just had his eyes closed, listening to his son’s words.

“Is that what you came here for; to yell at me?”

“No, I didn’t come here to talk to you at all. Luna wanted us to have a talk of closure so that you could see Solene, but now I feel like it was a good idea to get my feelings out…father.”

“But we did nothing but love you, Loki! You and Thor both; your mother and I picked no favorites. You must believe me when I say this.” Odin tried reasoning with his son but nothing was working.

He couldn’t even begin to understand the anguish and hatred he’s been feeling all these years.

Loki’s head was about to burst from all this madness. “No favoritism,” he exclaimed, his words burned like acid. “You’ve got to be kidding! There was nothing but that! Even when we went to bloody Hogwarts, the favoritism was bloody apparent there as well; I was always in Thor’s shadow just like I was here! Everybody loved him and nobody even took a glance at me. All they would say is ‘Oh, look at Thor’s brother, Loki: the loser and the loner that nobody likes.’ Hell, the only time I saw the model of a good and warm family was when I didn’t come back for that Midgardian holiday Christmas and I went to Luna’s house. Luna and her mother showed me a family that loved each other; the child didn’t want for some love, affection, and attention and the parent wasn’t oblivious to where they couldn’t see that the child wanted the one thing that a parent is supposed to do!”

Odin shot up and pointed at Loki, his voice like thunder. “We did the best we could with you!”

“No, you didn’t!” Loki shouted back, his eyes filling with tears. “Don’t you ever say you tried your best; Mother did, but don’t you dare say you tried; all you ever did was pay attention to Thor most of the time, barely giving me the light of day! You have no idea what kind of anguish I’ve felt all of these years. Just because I’m of Jotun blood it doesn’t mean I’m less deserving of your love than your actual biological son. I was just a simple child like Thor! My blood does not give me the burden of not loving someone or something. You see that I have a wife and a child who I both love dearly. Mother seems to have remembered that, but you must’ve lost that love for me when you realized that I couldn’t be used for your plan anymore...” The Asgardian Prince looked down as tears fell from his face as this entire conversation brought up of feelings from long ago that he thought were gone.

Outside of the room, behind the closed door, Luna and everybody else could hear the two gods’ verbal battle that was going on in the room next to her. She just hoped that Loki wouldn’t get himself killed.

Back in the room, Loki’s eyes were watery and his vision blurry and it got even worse as his anger intensified at the fact that Odin was just silent the entire time of his rant; he wasn’t even looking at Loki, while his son was right next to him on the verge of crying.

“That. Is. It! I am done with you and this whole conversation! All I can hope is that you treat my daughter with the love that you should’ve given me.” His words stung with hate as he stormed out the room.

Loki zoomed straight past everybody and just walked away.

“Loki, where are you go-“

“To my room,” he boomed, his fury blinding him that he just yelled at his wife. Luna sighed as she got slightly annoyed and hurt.

She walked quickly and followed after her husband.