Elejah Always

The Heart of Me

Several weeks after the Ball

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"To lose oneself is a state completely indescribable. You feel like nothing is there anymore. You are there, but you are not really, You feel like you are caught up in the rip tide and  it's pulling you down and you can't do anything to break free. And you just sink. Forever sink. And you wish to swim, to move, to do something, to stop from drowning, but for some reason your legs, your arms are not moving. You hear voices calling you to do so. But you don't. You don't care what they are saying. And then there is nothing. Just nothing"

Elena wrote in her diary. She put the pen down and looked out to the ocean.

***

In New York, Elijah put his suit on, adjusting his tie as he looked then at his watch. It had plenty of time to meet his sister for breakfast before work. His phone rang and he picked up the call, "Rebekah?"

"I will meet you there," Rebekah said,"sorry, but I will be late a bit"

"Fine" Elijah replied. Put his phone inside his jacket pocket.

He looked at himself in the mirror and straightened his sleeves.

Flashback

The first phone call after Elena left for California, as soon as she walked in Vicky's holiday home

"Elena" Elijah murmurred as he picked up the call.

"Elijah" the brunette uttered fillowed by a low breath descending in a long-drawn silence. And Elena then broke it, "I got here ok. I love you."

Elijah exhaled silently,"I love you, too."

In his therapy session with Camille he voiced their inability to talk.

"We used to talk about everything. And I can feel that something is keeping her locked away. It's like she fell in a coma yet again. But this time I can't do anything. And I saw in her eyes that she was feeling that she was letting me down and I could not persuade her that it wasn't so"

"She had a break down. A silent one. It's not always the case that people scream or get hysterical. Many things happened at once. The loss of a child even through miscarriage can cause a tremendous pain. We all react differently to loss. Grieve differently. She could feel she had let you down because she had lost the child and she blames herself connecting it to her brother" Camille said.

"Through her brother?" Elijah didn't quite understand how.

"The loss happened at the violent attack on her which was connected to her brother- she is transfering it - all the troubles she had with her brother are the cause of her shut down" Camille explained.

"But she is not to blame for any of it" Elijah uttered.

"But she unfortunately doesn't see it that way. I do hope she is still seeing a therapist." Camille concluded.

"She is" Elijah said.

He opened the conacts icon and looked at Elena's name on his favourite list. But he didn't make the call.

But then alert buzz popped out and there was a video she sent.

Elijah watched it and his heart flattered filling with hope and love.

***
The Mikaelsons were shattered, but they carried on. The most dangerous currents never could break them, not entirely.