She Dreams Of Spain

Chapter Three

Chapter Three-SDOS

I didn't see Wendell until four days later. Our school was starting finals and they did this thing where all the kids in the same grade shared the same lunch for this week. Most people were excited about being able to spend lunch with friends who normally didn't have the same lunch. It didn't matter to me. I did the same thing I always do during lunch period. Sat myself down on the stairs in front the of the school and listened to music.

No one really noticed me here, in fact no one notices me at all. I sort of blend in. I'm not pretty, I'm not overly fat or super underweight, I don't wear top brand clothes or cheap hand me downs.

I was average in almost every aspect. Almost. It was May. The middle of May and I'm wearing long sleeves. I had to though. People always stare at my scars if I give them the chance. Not everyone knows about them and I want to keep it that way

The loneliness was suffocating me. Why was I always alone? Why did I have to be? My thoughts always ran wild when I was alone. Maybe I could silence them forever if I just decided to end it all.

"Hey there, pretty lady" HIs voice startled me. Jesus, why did this boy have to come around when I start thinking about important life decisions. Its like hes my own little personal warning call.

"Hey Wendell. " I said a little solemnly. I couldn't think about these things every time he came around. It was wrong. He made it feel wrong. Like I needed to stay for some odd reason. He gave me some really weird feeling that I couldn't really understand. I didn't really know if I liked them or not and I wasn't exactly sure how to feel about the feelings themselves. I've never really felt like this, but Wendall did this to me. I know for a fact because it only comes when he's around.

"What's wrong beautiful?" He gave me a cheeky smile, he was trying to lighten the mood but his eyes showed so much worry.

I gave him a fake smile, "I'm okay, just tired." I faked a yawn and looked back at him.

Lord he had the prettiest eyes I have ever seen, They made me melt. His eyes were as green as a pasture I wanted to be buried in. He reminded me of any and all happy things in my life.

Trapped in my own mind he did the unexpected. I didn't notice him coming closer, his arms wound themselves around my waist. I was locked in an embrace so warm and so heartfelt. I didn't want this to end. Not now, maybe not ever, It silenced the demons in my mind. I needed this. I needed him. Whether I'd let myself admit it or not.

"Wha....Why?" I sputtered. His arms felt like heaven around me but what was his reasoning? The entire way he went about this was barbaric. Who goes up to crying strangers and buys them ice cream? Wh in the right mind would befriend someone like me? Why would he hug me like this. I wanted his reasons.

"You know things will always get better, be better. There is always hope. You'll never be alone. Not you. I know you don't trust me. I can see the pain in your eyes but I think you are absolutely breathtaking. You are stunning in every way." He said softly. His voice shushed nearly all my insecurities. His voice shushed my demons.

I just silently looked up at him in awe. No one had ever seen me like he had. I could never trust. So many people before had gone through me, as if I was nothing but dirt. He was different though. I had an unbearable urge to trust him, to love him. He could save me, but did I want saving?

"I see the sadness in your eyes and despite the damage done to your soul. I care for you. I am drawn to you. I want you. With that being said, Ser, come with me tonight?" he held his breath afterwards, as if nervous.

"Where to?" I asked, curious. Would this boy plan to hurt me? As much as I wanted to trust him, could I?

"Anywhere. I don't care, as long as it's just me and you." my heart melted at his soft words.

"Okay"