"Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong. Where are the plans we made for two?"
ERRYKA
Maria keeps on asking who my crush is. Ah. I hate it but I told her because she won't stop unless I tell her.
"Okay. It's Alex. Please don't tell him because he might call me a backstabber or our friendship might be ruined so please. Please don't."
"Omg. Okay no. Hindi ko sasabihin. Pero... Omg!"
"Oo na oo na. Uy wag mo sabihin ah."
"Errykaaaaa!" Maria screamed so loud the whole world could here.
"Maria! Maria! Mariaaaaaaaa! Oooooh?"
"Erryka omg. Guess what?"
"Sinabi mo? asdfghjklqwertyuiop"
"Sorry pero..."
"Wtf! Sinabi mo? Ugh. Ugh. Anong kalokohan 'tong ginawa mo?"
"Sorry talaga pero guess what, he loves you too."
"Niloloko mo talaga ko no? Nakakainis ka. Kung sa tingin mo, mas mapapatawad kita sa ginagawa mong yan, nako Maria, ka-bv ka!"
She called him. I became so shy but I really don't believe Maria. So she asked him to write a letter to me. It says it all. He likes me too. What the? Okay. But, I'm not a backstabber at all..
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From that day on, we never talked. Never. I felt so bad for that. I miss him. Not literally anyway, but as being his best. I miss everything about him. I don't know.
ALEX
I bought some treats to relieve all the thoughts in my mind. She likes me? What? I like her too. I like her so much. But she was my best friend. But I hope it won't affect us. I'll hate myself forever if it does.
"Gusto mo?" I asked her.
"What? You're talking to me?" She said.
"Yes. Erryka. I'm talking to you. Oh ano, you want?" I replied.
"Uhm. Alam mo nanaman lahat diba?"
"Lahat? Ah about you and me thingy?"
"Yes. And why are you acting so normal like nothing happened? What's up dude. Wake up!"
"Ba't ba ang awkward mo na? Why do you have to deal with me like sobrang wala tayong pinagsamahan?"
"Eh wala eh alam mo nanaman diba? Wag ka nang magkungwari as if di ka galit sa akin or you don't think backstabber ako for wanting you. Okay fine. Awkward na ko sayo and awkward ka na sa akin and stop pretending and just don't mind me because I know that's what you want. You heard the word from me now. Ayan, wag ka na mag-alala, hindi na kita sisisihin kasi ako na mismo nagsabi sayo. Gawin mo na lang yan and masaya ka and masaya na din ako. I'll forget you and everything. Thanks sa lahat."
"Tatalikuran mo na lang lahat? Wow. Bilib din ako sayo. Di ko alam anong nagawa ko ba't nagbago ka na lang sa akin. Gusto kong sisihin sarili ko pero hindi ko manahap kung ano nagawa ko. Bigla kitang nasisisi pero ayoko kasi best friend kita. And... Yung nararamdaman ko sayo, the same way na nararamdaman mo. Wala lang talaga siguro akong lakas ng loob. Mas malakas ka sa akin. Inaamin ko yun. At nahihiya ako dun. Sorry, sorry. Kung awkward tayo, pano na? Ano ba kasing feelings 'to? Nasira friendship natin. Pero ano magagawa ko?"
"Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko talaga alam. Ikaw alam mo? Hindi din diba? At walang makakaalam dahil wala. Wala na. Di na to maaayos dahil nasimulan na. Hindi na natin to maaayos kaya iwasan mo na lang ako. Mahirap pero kakayanin. Masasanay din naman ako eh."
"Yun na lang talaga solusyon mo? Isipin mo nga, di ako masasaktan? Baka ikaw, di ka nasasaktan pero ako, oo, sobra. Pwede ba? Ayusin natin to."
"Ano gusto mong gawin ko? Magisip ng paraan para mawala feelings natin in one minute tapos okay na ulit tayo? Nagiisip ka pa ba ng tama? Malabo yun okay? Kaya yun na lang yung solusyon ko para matigil na to kaya please lang."
"Imposible nga yun. At oo, di na ko nakakaisip ng tama sa kakaisip kung bakit, pano, kailan, saan nangyari to. Ayusin natin to please."
"Wala na kong magagawa. Wala na ding papuntahan tong paguusap nating to. Sige na."
ERRYKA
He asked me if I want some treats. Are you kidding me? Are you insane? I love you! And that's true. And now you're gonna ask me if I want some treats? What the heck are you doing? Aaaaah. And what the heck did I just say? Why did I even fight with him? Why do I even have to stick into his mind that everything is impossible now. I can't help it.
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3, 4, 5 months. Nothing had changed. Still normal - it's normal to me now, that we're not talking like we never knew each other then suddenly a miracle happened. His seat was transferred. He's now seated beside the person in front of me. Omygoodness. He's too near. I can't act normal. I should act like what? How? Ah... The thoughts in my mind, I hate you.
He didn't get the topic. He thought I was some other person that he was close to so he asked me a question about it and I replied,
"Sa tingin mo?" The answer was so obvious I don't know why he asked it but anyway, I answered like somebody else then he noticed my voice, it's me. He looked at me then said,
"Ay. Sorry. Akala ko ibang tao. Sorry." He said in a bitter way then ran. Okay, I know it's my fault why he was doing that.
"Alex!" I called him as he tried to escape from me. "I'm sorry. For everything. All is my fault. I'm so sorry."
"Uhm. Huh?"
"Alam kong alam mo kung ano sinasabi ko."
"Okay."
"Eh ba't parang galit ka pa rin diyan ha?"
"Wala. Hindi kasi ako galit."
I chased him as he ran while teasing me. All the words in the dictionary can't explain how happy I am now. That we're fine and were back to normal - normal when I say normal.
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