Michael's POV (the next day)
How amazing can a future be? You get older, you get hurt more, and time passes you by, so what does a future mean when you don't know what to live for?
These are my questions along with many more, but when I look at life and how much you can accomplish, and who you can love and what you can learn absolutely blows my mind. A man once said, "I'll never have love and I'll eat my sorrows away. "
Me...that man was me.
I honestly thought that life would pass me by and run me over until I met her.
Now at least I know for certain that I don't believe in love at first sight, mainly because my first impression was, "why is she looking at me, oh God a female is looking at me!! She's gonna eat me!!" And being the smart and incredibly intelligent person that I am I blushed and ran away and hid in the boys bathroom for about ten minutes, so as you can see I don't believe it is real cause I'm weird and awkward.
But hey don't judge me I was ten, back when cooties were real as hell and girls were scary (still are. Don't judge).
In all seriousness though I didn't realize what and who I ran away from until my now 18 year old mind snickers in amusement at my 10 year old self as I hold on tightly to my favorite creation.
This girl has ceased all pain and loneliness in my life even though in her dreams they are still present to her. My heart aches and twists knowing that someone has made demons and horror present in her most sacred moments of life and in her dreams. When I look at Aaliyah, I see a heart that has been broken too many times, but is continuing on to hope for a love that we have and hopefully will continue on.
I love this girl with all my heart and I can't imagine losing her.
I know I shouldn't have turned her away on her birthday, but I have been raised to believe that celebrating holidays or things like that will take away your chance to go to Heaven when Armeggedon comes.
I want her to know that I love her still. I just don't know how, and it's driving me crazy.
*knock, knock* I quickly look up from my untouched lyric book and see Jackie trudge in with a confused look. I quietly snickered without any effort at humor. "What happened, happy-lookin?" He rolled his eyes and sat next to me in an old fold up chair and rested his left arm on my brown desk. He sighed tiredly.
"Liza broke up with me." I wrinkled my brows.
"Your girlfriend, Liza? " he let his head drop and he let out a shaky breath. "What happened?"
"She got mad saying that I didn't pay enough attention to her, like oh sorry that you knew I was gonna be busy as a recording artist." His voice said, muffled. I let a sympathetic smirk play on my face.
"I'm sorry Jacks. " he slowly shook his head and slowly stole a sideways glance at me and quietly sniffled.
"I guess this could be a life lesson moment, but you know I'm not good at it, so all I'm gonna say is, if you have someone you love right in front of you, put them first and take the chance before you get your heart torn apart, Mike." I nodded in thought as he pushed himself up in a lethargic state, patted my back and trudged back out. I continued to saunter in thought as a new form of lyrics glided through my brain in the form of a special girl.
