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3.7

//He.//

She is always with that guy and her friends

he's always by her side

Just like me with the other one;
(and when exactly
did the person that I'm supposed to love
become the other one?)

except that
they're together as a team
he's by her side more than just physically

Different than
what I have
with
the other one

There's attraction
There's chemistry

Our bodies fit

and that's it.

We don't have deep talks

We don't share the same opinions

We don't even get a good laugh from each other;

Sometimes I'm ashamed for what my life is

but there's no way it could be any different.

And she is more than I could handle

For the smile rarely leaves her face

Except in those moments
when she stares into the nothing
and they are overwhelmed with sadness

To her
there seems to be no in between
all of her emotions are so genuinely painted on her face
When she laughs its heartwarming
and you just can't stand but laugh with her

She's so silly
even from afar
one can tell that she makes fun of herself
to make others laugh
But it's not self doubt
or insecurities
because she finds comfort in her own skin

And
by the shy way she walks
you can tell
that there's a certain fear of people
but not herself

And even deeper
there lies defy
By the way her eyes glance
on rare occasions
with fight and mischief;

No, she does not hide a thing about herself
because she knows that most are afraid
to truly look at others

And although her emotions are clear
her thoughts are obscure
her eyes promise oceans
that no one could ever fully explore

but I want to try
for there has never been
a greater mystery

Yet
I can't.

I once could tell

that she fell for me

her eyes stumbling

over all of my edges;

But now they're cold

And how could she want me
if she has him?

I never saw them kiss
but I don't need to

Their connection is obvious
They're best friends

And people talk

People

talk

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