Idol Life: Why can't we? / Sehun fan fiction

Chapter 14: I don't want to hurt you

"I think we should break up."

These words are like daggers into my heart.

He must be joking.

He has to be.

But the tears in his eyes tell me the contrary.

"N-No! Please!" I stammer.

"I'm sorry, I just can't." He apologizes, tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Why?! Why!" I start to cry.

This can't be happening. 

I can't lose him.

"It's for the best. Too many people are starting to have doubts about us, it might ruin your career. I can't allow it. I dont' want you to face hate and scandal because of me."

I shake my head in disbelief. 

"No! I don't care about them! I don't care what they say! I just want to be with you!" 

"Didn't you hear the girl before, they'll hate you for being with me, they'll want to hurt you!" Sehun reminds me.

I shake my head. I don't want to hear it. 

"I don't care!" I shout, trying to bring him back to reason.

"I can't Eva, I just can't" He whispers, all the pain of the world in his eyes.

And he turns back and starts walking.

"Sehun! Don't go!" I cry. "I love you! Did your words mean nothing?! What about the padlock?!"

 I try my best to make him turn to me and admit he was wrong. 

But he just stop for one second and then continues walking, leaving me alone with my broken heart and my tears.

I fall on my knees, I can't believe this happened.

I watch Sehun walk away and not once he turns back.

Tears keep rolling down my cheeks.

He left.

He just left.

I cry for a long time, alone in the night. 

How could this turn so bad?

Why didn't our happiness last?

I stay there for a long time before finally getting up.

I decide to do the only reasonable thing I can think of.

Drink.

So I go back to the city and quickly find a street bar and order some Soju.

So I drink.

One bottle...

Two...

Three...

And then I loose the count.

After quite a long time, I was alone in the bar, there was just the bar owner there.

Luckily for me I was discreet enough and no one recognized me. 

Thank god I'm still a not so known idol.

I'm now totally drunk, going from laughters to tears in a second.

I just can't believe he left me.

On a stupid impulse I decide to call my dear friend.

Minsoo.

Somehow my drunk me thought it would be a great idea to call the guy in love with me who I rejected, to tell him about my love problem.

I should stop drinking.