I've yet to decide if it was worth it-
All that headache.
sandy island toes,
lonely islands woes,
shipwrecked, tethered to the sea,
i have always been on my own.
sadness of pastel summer,
lack of empathy,
-i broke
plague of momentary weakness
rubber band snapped like heartstrings
the relapse seeking company
perpetuation of the vicious cycle
god's violet eyes look upon us
without pity.
an elephants mind, i remember
songs we'd sing
delicate cherished strings
playground queens, cackling
swept away, your frankenbride
i remember everything.
dancers, ribbons, scabbed stripes
where metal met skin.
i do not miss being sad.
put that behind us,
rising above the dark horizon
i still chased you, moon.
it was futile.
{you abandoned me
you gave up on me
you hurt me
you have never been sorry.}
happy memories:
the first to be forgotten
you never had trouble forgetting me
it is day 501 of this haunting
