i miss you okay. i miss hearing your voice. i miss knowing how your day was. and i miss making you smile- and being the cause. fuck it i love seeing you smile in general because it's the most beautiful thing. i always told you were beautiful so many times it was probably annoying but i just wanted you to see what i see. you are absolutely beautiful and i am so blessed that i am not blind so that i can see you. i love you too okay. i am so in love with you and i am trying to find out if that's good or bad. i don't regret it though. i don't regret loving you. i love loving you, i just hope you love me too. you always loved me and i fucking took that for granted and i am so sorry. i hate myself everyday for not always giving you the love you deserve. i'm sorry for giving up. i am fighting right now for you and i pray that i win. i don't want to loose you because you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and i know that is cliche but i mean it. i just want to hold you so bad and i'd give up everything just to hold you. distance keeps us apart but you not being in my life feels like we are even farther apart. i don't want it to be like this. i just want you. all i see is you. i've only got eyes for you. and fuck i know this is stupid. but i just want you. i love you so much and if i could have another chance that i am so undeserving of: i'd be so happy. you deserve all the love and i want to be the one to give it you.
