is it so bad i fancy the body parts that i have on my body or the same gender as i?
i know i am sinning so badly every time i look into her eyes
my mind lies to me and denies the feelings i have
because the holy god says it is wrong.
but my heart knows what it feels
but maybe i am confused or maybe i am not
i'm just trying to make the right move
for i am not trying to feel flames for an eternity
i just want to love and be loved
how do i change the parts of me that has taken me so long to love?
and how do i un accept myself?
i ask for guidance but i still don't know where the hell to go
different doors leading in to the same trap
that always leads me back
to conversations with myself i personally do not like to have:
sexuality.
