Apparently, after all the arguements that we had, we decided not to talk to each other for a while. Every morning when I woke up, I used to see my phone's notifications just to see whether Iris had texted me or no. And everytime, I would end up being sad because there were no texts from her. I wasn't able to live this way, so I started texting her. The conversations between us now only consisted of cold replies, but as you know, ‘Beggars can't be choosers’ so I had to live with it.
It was the worst stage of my life. I changed into a completely new person, I embraced the dark side of mine and hate for myself started to cook up in my heart. Each time I went to sleep, I dreamed of being in a relationship with her, but it used to hurt when I used to wake up and get reminded that it was just a dream and she can never be mine. I guess this is what happens when you love someone who doesn't feel the same way, you always end up being hurt. And trust me, it hurts bad, VERY BAD.
I didn't know why, but I still loved her. I could never forget her, even if she stabbed a knife in my chest, I would still love her. I guess I was crazy for her, but that's what love is. After what had happened, my heart was heavy, I always felt low and screwed. I could not sleep at nights, I used to imagine situations in my mind which were never gonna happen. I know it was stupid, but I couldn't do anything else. I was losing many friends due to this new and dark side of mine. I stopped talking to almost everyone, I started being alone. At home too, I used to lock myself up in a room with my phone and headphones on which I listened to Eminem. I thought that songs would help me feel relaxed, but all they did was made me feel more low. I started hating everybody that time, replied coldly to everyone and stopped caring too. I was kinda getting used to this new side now.
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My Faulty Destiny
Conto"I love you." He cried. "I love you too but as a friend" She said and the words ripped my heart out of my chest..
