I was cold and could feel the hate cooking up inside me. I felt like sitting in a corner, crying the whole day, felt like getting some cuts on my arm, like jumping off from my building terrace. But I never did any of these because something wad holding me back. What was that something? It was the thought that, ‘What if I become the old me that I was before all this shit happened and Iris starts to like me?’ I still had the hopes alive in me that maybe someday she will feel the same way, but it never happened.
I thought about it, and finally decided to ask Jefferson for some advice. The only advice that he gave me was, ‘You don't need to change bro, just be as you were before, let this sad guy be inside you, don't let it come out. Try to be happy and also to make others happy. Maybe she will fall for you someday, if it is meant to happen, it will happen. Don't worry.’ His words were really effective and I thought to give it a try. I became the person which I was a few months ago. I always had a smile on my face, always tried to keep others happy and showed them that I was happy too. But one question that I used to ask myself was, ‘Am I really happy?’
The answer to the question was NO. I wasn't actually happy. The smile on my face was just a fake smile which I used to hide my tears. There always hid a sad face behind my happy face, I was still very upset with what had happened. But then I thought that it wasn't supposed to end this way. I loved her so much, how could I let her go? I badly wanted her back in my life, I started missing her a lot. I realized what a stupid fool I was to let Iris go.
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My Faulty Destiny
Storie brevi"I love you." He cried. "I love you too but as a friend" She said and the words ripped my heart out of my chest..
