Remember to Forget ~(A Garmau Fanfiction)~ A Sequel to "Going By His Rules"

~Memories~

"Aphmau? We're home... you can wake up now... I'll help you out." Garroth whispered, slightly shaking me. I stretched and got out of the car, purposely ignoring his offer to help.

I ran inside the house since it was raining. The sky was clear when I was driving home. How did it get so bad..?

I got to my room and changed. I took my jeans off and saw that the blood went through from my cuts. The tissue didn't help.

"A-Aphmau! Sorry!" I turned around. Garroth was at the door, covering his eyes.
"I didn't know you were chang--" He took his hands off his face and just stared at me.

"W-What!? Don't stare!" I said nervously. He looked at my legs, then at my face. He looked disturbed.

"What is that?" He pointed to my legs. My heart sank. I forgot. He wasn't supposed to know. "Was that why your legs hurt? And why you were tired?" He kept on staring at the large gashes I made on my thighs earlier with glass I hid away.

"Garroth, I... I didn't mean to... It was an accident--"

"No, you DID do that on purpose! How did you NOT MEAN to do that?! How could cuts that deep be an accident!? You promised me you wouldn't do this... You said you would stop for me..."

"I never said I would stop for you. I don't even think I said I'd stop. Everyone wants me to forget about everything, but they aren't even letting me do what I want..."

"You are hurting yourself! What, you want me to just let it slide and have you go through what I went through?!"

"That's better than remembering everything I went through!! You were supposed to support me..."

"So bleeding out will help you and your problems?!"

"You know what? I don't need this... I don't need you..." I pushed Garroth aside and grabbed shorts on the way out. I ran to my backyard and hid behind a tree. I was angry. But I was in tears the moment I collapsed to the ground.

Why am I so mean...

Almost five months ago, I almost got myself beaten to death just to see Garroth. Now here I am yelling at him.

"Aphmau?! Aphmau, where did you go!!?"

I stood quiet. It was hard since I couldn't stop crying.

"Don't do that... Please don't scare me like that..." Garroth whimpers as he falls on me and embraces me. It makes me jump. "I hate seeing you hurt... I can't loose you again..." He cries on my shoulder. I didn't know what to do. I just cried harder.

"I'm sorry... I just... don't know what to do anymore..." I hugged him back. I knew it killed him to see me in pain. "I'm a terrible friend..."

"No... No you're not... I understand... I-It's hard... I'm sorry. But please don't hate me... do what you want, just don't hurt yourself too hard... I'm sorry..."

"I'll stop, I'll stop... Just dont cry... I love you... I love you so much..."

We kissed for a first time in awhile. It made me happy and relieved. We agreed to keep it secret but it just drifted us apart more.

Two years had passed.

Garroth and I had moved out since we were now young adults at 18.

My dad is helping us pay rent for the new apartment for a year only.

I stopped hurting myself since I promised Garroth. He also makes sure I don't try to sneak my switchblade in the bathroom.

For some reason, I've been kind of nervous around him. I could never tell why.