Remember to Forget ~(A Garmau Fanfiction)~ A Sequel to "Going By His Rules"

~You're Not You Anymore~

I waited patiently in my bed for Laurence. He was taking so long...

How far away could he be..? I was sweating and fidgeting in my sheets.

What is happening to me..? What do I need, exactly..?

Something is wrong with me and I don't know what to do...

I couldn't control myself anymore. All I could think about was pain. My body was shaking and it was driving me insane. I wanted to be punched around until I couldn't move anymore.

I heard knocking on the door, along with the door bell ringing frantically. I jumped out of bed and almost threw myself down the stairs. I opened the door and pulled Laurence in. He was drenched in rain water from the storm.

He stumbles and grabs onto my shoulders.

"Are you okay?! What happened?? You look like you haven't slept in days and you ran a marathon..." He said, catching his breath.

"Please... Help me... I don't know what to do..."

"What?! I'll do anything! Just say the word and consider it done--"

"Hurt me~"

His face turns pale white. He looked at me like I was crazy.

"... Could you... run that by me again..? I'm not sure if--"

"Hurt me... just real quick. I can't take it anymore..."

"Aphmau, you called me here to hurt you..? I can't do that... D-Don't make me do it... I'll do anything else, I swear. Just... not that..."

"Look at me... I'm hurting right now... I just need a punch or something... Anything... Help me with this just once~"

"Aph, I... I can't. I know I hurt you earlier but I didn't mean it... I don't think I could do it intentionally..."

I stood quiet and looked down at my hands. I was still shaking and I couldn't control it. It seemed like Laurence noticed this.

"... will... will it make you happy..?" He spoke up. He sounded uneasy. I nodded. "Then... I- I'll do it. But... It's not to hurt you, I... I'm helping you... Right..?"

"Please, hurry up. Make it stop... Make the shaking stop..."

Laurence clenched his fists and looked down. He didn't move for a moment.

"I... I can't..." He looks up at me with tears flowing from his eyes. "Even thinking about hurting you makes me miserable!" He grabs onto my shoulders. "Don't make me do this--"

I bent my legs and fell back, pulling Laurence down with me by his arms. My back hit the floor first, then Laurence landed on me, falling on my lungs and cutting off my breathing.

I couldn't explain it, but I felt amazing.

The sensation I felt in my back made me feel motionless,

weak,

hopeless,

free...