Piercings And Tattoos

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There is absolutely nothing fun about falling in love, mostly it makes you feel sick and crazy and anxious and nervous, sometimes all at once sometimes at certain intervals. People say that it's going to end miserably and ruin your whole life and you think they are telling a lie but guess what: it's the truth. The past few weeks had been hell, Cole tried to visit everyday to check in on me but I didn't want to see anyone, not in the state I was in. My phone buzzed a million times a day from Sky and Serena but after a while I turned my phone off. My days contained of just sleeping I couldn't eat without feeling sick. I woke up midday and stared over at the clock when Frosty came into the room and locked the door. He approached the bed and stared at me.

"Go away Frosty." I mumbled and glanced over to him.

"You haven't eaten in weeks, you haven't showered you haven't done anything. Your my friend and I'm not letting this get to you." he sat beside me, I rolled over to face away from him but he roughly rolled me back to him.

"Seriously, I see your hurting and guess what, it's hurting me and Cole and Serena, especially Sky so get your ass up, shower and change and I'm taking you to Coles dads." he frowned at me, I weakly shook my head that sent him over the edge. He flung the covers off me and lifted me into his arms. River lead him to the bathroom and started the bath.

"Wash yourself or have two extremely hot guys do it." he placed me down on my feet. I unsteadily stood there but I understood what Frosty was trying to do and I wasn't really in the mood. They left me to wash and change before Frosty dragged me out to his car and back to Coles dads house. He parked the car and looked over at me.

"You don't have to stay long just see them." he mumbled getting out of the car. I shakily entered the house to see Sky and Serena sitting on the lounge.

"Nice to see you on your feet my dude." Serena smiled at me trying to be positive. I looked over at Cole who looked extremely tired.

"Where is he?" I managed to say, Cole motioned towards the stairs. I took a deep breath and went up to Bronx's room. I softly tapped on his door before entering. His room was a complete wreak and he himself was worse than me. Black rings formed under his eyes, his knuckles were extremely bruises and he was deadly pale.

"I don't want you here to make me feel bad." he said to me.

"I didn't want to come here but Frosty made me and I needed to see you." I managed to say without crying. He sat up and glared at me.

"Leave, take your stuff and just go, what do you seriously want me to say to you." he harshly said to me.

"I want you to tell me the truth even if it hurts me, go ahead tear my heart apart one last time!" I shouted at him making him drop his head.

"Truth is... I can't stop thinking about you and I don't know what to do but I do know I need space so... Please." his voice broke as he pointed over to the door. I turned to grab my bag of stuff and left to go downstairs to see the others looking over at me.

"Come on sweetheart." Frosty wrapped his arm around me and led me out to the car, Sky stormed upstairs and screamed at Bronx but Frosty closed the door before I could hear anymore. He drove back to Rivers house in silence, I jumped out of the car and entered the house. River watched me walk across the room to go down the corridor to my bedroom. I chucked my stuff In the corner and went straight to bed to cry myself to sleep.

***

Six weeks had passed and I had no motivation to do anything, he wanted space I gave him six weeks of space and he wouldn't visit. Cole and Frosty had attempted various ways to get me out and about but they gave up and carried on with their lives. River came in with a bowl of cereal and sat in front of me.

"Today's the day, we go do something productive." he shoveled the cereal into his mouth. I rubbed my eyes and sighed.

"Like what?" I asked him that actually got his interest, mainly because it was the first time I had spoken to him in weeks that wasn't a swear. He placed the bowl on the side table and crawled up the bed leaning close to my face.

"I wanna make you feel alive. I wanna make you happy." he whispered to me before kissing my cheek softly. I looked into his eyes before pushing him away from me to get dressed. We headed over to the shopping center which I allowed him to do anything. We had lunch which only contained me eating small pieces of food but it was a start.

"How you feeling?" he softly asked me knowing about the sensitivity of the question.

"I'm broken in so many ways I don't feel like I'll ever be repaired." I mumbled and sipped at my drink. He frowned at me and sighed running his fingers through his hair.

"Fuck it, screw being repaired your beautiful being broken. What you do now makes you stronger so you don't fall apart." He firmly said standing to his feet, I bit my lip and jumped up to stare at him.

"You want to make me feel alive then let's go." I said grabbing his hand. I needed change in my life so our first stop was the hairdressers. River smirked at me through the mirror as my hair shortened to the length of my shoulders and had the tips of it dyed silver like Rivers hair. We next went to the tattoo parlor as River was intending to get a new tattoo.

"You should get one." River said as he looked at the different designs. I bit my lip and decided why not I could handle a little pain. I got a circle with a X in the middle tattooed on my lower back before getting my nose pierced. We were finally finished shopping as River took me home.

"I'll be back later tonight." he informed me as he pulled into the driveway.

"Where you going?" I asked him getting out of the car and over to the front door.

"Just a club, you can come if your really up to it..." he trailed off but I agreed to go with him, he said he was going to make me feel alive and tonight was going to be amazing.

***

I smoothed down my black skirt that hung on my hips and exposed my new tattoo. River wrapped his arms around my waist and led me into the club pushing over to the bar. He ordered drinks for both of us as he leaned against the bar.

"Seeing you like this makes me really happy." he played with the dyed ends of my hair.

"Well don't stop because you have a statement to live up to." I glanced at him, the bartender placed the drinks down on the bar counter. I sipped at my drink and cringed at the string alcoholic taste.

"And what statement was that?" he raised his eyebrows at me.

"Making me feel alive." I bit my lip and placed the glass down, he grasped my hand pulling me against him.

"Trust me, when we get back I'll make you feel so alive." he whispered in my ear before dragging me out to the dance floor. I wrapped my arms around his neck before dancing against him, his hands gripped my hips. Once I turned around to press myself up against him my heart dropped. Cole, Frosty, Sky and Serena gaped at my appearance before I noticed Bronx sitting there shocked.