Enlightened

Chapter 12: Breaking Down POV: Charlie

It has been a week since I stabbed Kass and lost my humanity. To say I'm not doing good is an understatement. I am not well physically nor mentally. I have found berries but I am running out of them quickly. As for water, I drink whenever I find streams but due to me moving so much, coming across water is very sporadic and unpredictable. Due to this, I have slimmed considerably this past week, and my mental state is no better. Instead of fighting the demons, I now fight myself. Most of me of has already given into the demons, deciding to succumb to the darkness, while a small part of me is determined to remain good, though that small part has seemly gotten smaller and smaller as the week has past. I am a mess, and there's no denying it.

"Charlie." I hear a voice call from behind, and I quickly turn around, pointing my knife at the person's chest. "Nice try, but even if you wanted to stab me, you can't." Percy's dark side informs me. "What are you doing back?" I growl in annoyance. "Well considering I am technically somewhat part of your mind, some part of you must have wanted me to come back." He says. "N-no, that can't be true." I stutter. "Oh, but it is. Charlie again I will ask you, why are you so insistent on remaining good. Why not be bad for once? It's not like anybody cares about you anymore." "What do you mean?" I ask, anger filling my voice. "I mean," he responds, "that right now while you are alone in the jungle and could be in danger, while all your friends and family are at Camp Half-Blood not even worrying about your safety." "That's not true and you and I both know it!" I hiss. "Charlie, I can guarantee you right now they are not worried about you, why would they when they despise you?" Each of his words make me  feel like I am getting stabbed in the chest. "So what? Why shouldn't they despise me?" I manage to respond. "Because Charlie, they have no reason to despise you, yet. Instead of trying to earn forgiveness that you will never receive, why don't you give them a reason to despise you?" He aggressively says. "Besides, even Percy is afraid of you, he hates you actually." With those words something breaks inside of me, maybe its because Percy is my father, or maybe its because I thought that if anyone were to understand my actions it would be him, but either way those words affected me like no other ones could. "Fine, what do you want me to do?" I ask, exasperated. "Easy," he grins, "do what your father couldn't, go to Olympus and kill the gods." 

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AN: Hey guys, sorry for a late update but I've been busy working on another books and I'm happy to announce that within the next month I hope to release one or two new books. One will be an original and the other will be a Twenty One Pilots fanfic. Now I know those aren't Percy Jackson related but I want to post different types of content on this account. In the future I also hope to write a The 100 fanfic, since I'm really into that show right now. Anyways, as far as this book goes, its coming to an end pretty soon, though I will probably also write another PJO fanfic soon as well. Sorry for a boring chapter but it was necessary to have a chapter where Charlie 'breaks' so...