No More You.

7

"I really want to find out the baby's gender, we cannot just keep on calling our little one 'Spot' can we? I mean I'm 100% sure we can't call our baby 'Spot' that's like a dogs name." Karlie whined at her girlfriend, standing in front of the mirror touching her ever-growing stomach. At four months gone the debate over their unborn child's gender had started and Taylor had bet Karlie that their baby would be a girl, however the brunette thought differently. The taller girl had always wanted a baby and she had always wanted a boy first; especially after growing up with three sisters.

"I told you Kar, it's up to you because you're carrying her. We have another ultrasound tomorrow, how about you sleep on it and then tomorrow if you really want we'll find out the gender okay baby?"

Karlie smiled to herself she knew Taylor would let her get her own way eventually, finally breaking herself away from the mirror and towards her girlfriend. It had been a hard few months of endless appealing to the fertility clinic, due to the fact they weren't yet a married couple, the girls eventually hired the best lawyer in the state who won them their case. "Did you think this time six months ago that we'd be here right now? Having a baby, our very own child. All I've ever wanted is a family with you." Karlie whispered softly, smirking a little at the blush appearing on Taylor's face.

"That's all I've ever wanted too, in five mere months little spot will be here. I can't wait to spoil her rotten."

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Taylor had finally drifted into a peaceful sleep after scaring her fiancée shitless, the blonde had started burning up not long after they had arrived at the hotel. The temperature was not a normal feverish temperature, to Karlie the heat radiating off Taylor was how she imagined hell felt. After a hour of watching over her fiancée the taller girl quietly left the hotel room, remembering to take the keycard with her.

Karlie needed an escape from cancer for fifteen minutes, she felt awful and extremely guilty for even feeling this way but she wasn't in any fit state to look after Taylor at this minute. Making her way to the staircase the green-eyed woman made her way past the top floor and to the roof.

Karlie had often in the past two months gone up to the roof of the apartment with and without Taylor, just like the time after Ainsley had passed to vent at the world. It took a weight of her shoulders for a small while, or at least that's what it felt like. She pulled up a deck chair that had been left on the roof for hotel visitors to sit and enjoy the view, and slumped herself down in it. Taking a few minutes to stare at the night sky, looking for the brightest star in the sky before she spoke.

"Hey Ainsley, I'm sorry it's been a while since I last spoke to you. I've had a lot going on, you know with your Mum. Why did 'God' decide the most precious, caring, beautiful soul in the world deserved cancer? The same 'God' who already took you away from us! Did we do something really fucking awful to suffer so much?" Karlie felt the tears she had been holding in for so long slip down her cheek and burn her cold skin, her heart was pounding against her rib cage. She gulped down the desire to scream at the world, at God, but Karlie had stopped believing in God the day Taylor told her about the cancer; she struggled before then with her faith, it had been on edge from the moment their daughter died but that tipped her most. "I don't think I'm asking for a lot, all I want— all I've ever wanted and needed is your Mum and a family of my own with her, you know? I really hope you're looking down on us, I need that hope and that strength... I love you." 

Wiping her tears with her sleeves Karlie tried to compose herself, she had managed to let time slip away causing her to feel the dread of guilt that had just slipped away. An ambulance siren echoed in her ears, bright lights sped towards the hotel, fear rose in the pit of Karlie's stomach.

"Please don't be for Taylor, please."

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I think everyone has forgotten about this because I didn't update for so long, oops. I'm sorry. This is shit but hey least I updated, right? 😶