Proximity| A Kim Namjoon Fanfiction [Hyung Line Book 1] **COMPLETED**

Lost Stars

Y/N's POV

I never should have said anything. He still hasn't called me and my thoughts are torturing me. What did I think was going to happen? That he would come back to me and not live his life and chase his dream? This isn't a movie and I was just being naive. I may have lost my best friend. Why can't we have control over our hearts? It's a part of me and it's inside of me so I should get to have a say in what it does dammit. Maybe I should call him? I can still take it back maybe it's not too late.

"Y/N"

I can just tell him it was a mistake and that what I said was on impulse.

"Y/N"

I would rather have him be my best friend for the rest of my life and love him quietly than not have him at all.

"Y/N! Pay attention please!"

Oh crap.

I completely forgot I was in class. I need to start paying attention. If I don't pass this class I won't be able to get recruited by an entertainment company. I'll call him when I get home, for now I guess I'll just have to bear with two more hours of music history.

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I'm sitting on my bed staring daggers at my phone across my lap on my bed.

Maybe he'll call? But then why did he hang up in the first place?

This is so frustrating. If he didn't lead me to believe he felt the same then maybe I wouldn't have confessed!

Stupid Kim Namjoon with your stupid  cute face, and your stupid cute dimples, and your stupid  cute personality!

He may break a lot of things, but I always thought that he would never break the one thing he promised to protect. I mean I still remember what he did for me the first year we spent my birthday together, how could I not?

~~~~~~3 years ago~~~~~~

Y/N's POV

My phone has been ringing nonstop since this morning.

Ugh this is why I hate birthdays.I just want to sleeeeep.

I lazily grab my phone off the nightstand and check that I have 32 missed calls from the one and only Kim Namjoon.

Of course.

I think he gets more excited about my birthday than I do. I smile to myself and call him back.

"Y/N ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh rise and shine! It's time for us to begin the best day of your life." He says excitedly into the phone.

"The day you finally let me sleep in and leave on a looooooong trip as far away from me as possible?" I reply with a sarcastic tone.

"Y/N I don't appreciate your tone. I will go over there and break your bed if that's what it takes to get you to get up" He says, and I reply,

"Is that a threat? Pffftttttttt you break everything, I bet if you sat on my bed it would break just because you happened to sit on it."

"Y/N-ahhhhhhhhhh" he says

I laugh loudly into the phone, he really needs to stop doing that. It's too cute.

"I'm going to pick you up in about an hour, be ready." He says

"Ok, see you soon."

I get up from my bed and start to pick out an outfit. I have a feeling I know where we're going. The park. There's something he finds relaxing about all the wind and the trees and how it gives him piece of mind, I don't know he's all philosophical like that.

I put on some ripped jeans, a white t-shirt, and my red high-top converse.

Simple..
.. yet cute this is perfect.

I head downstairs to eat breakfast while catching up on some TV and an hour quickly passes by. While we're at the park, we get a couple's bike and we feed some nearby ducks. I guess one of them didn't like Namjoon and it ended up biting his hand when he tried to feed him. I have never laughed so much in my life. We then headed to the picnic area and ate some sandwiches accompanied by some soda and chips. I was just surprised he didn't forget his wallet. Soon the sun went down, then Namjoon and I layed down on the grass.

"Thank you for today, I had a lot of fun." I said

"I'm glad you had fun you seemed really amused when that duck bit my hand I bet you made it do that." He replies smiling

"How could I possibly make a duck bite you? Do you think I told it to?? I wasn't aware I spoke duck." I reply teasingly, while laughing.

"Well I mean you guys are of the same family, I thought you knew this." He replies smiling to the point where his dimples protrude.

I punch him playfully in the arm and he feigns pain while grabbing onto his shoulder. He then looks up at me and scans my face as if looking for something.

"If you're looking for something, the stars are up there." I reply and look back up.

He then with one single finger, tilts my head back towards his direction and says,

"The only stars I want to look at are the ones right here." He says pointing towards my eyes first to my left, then to my right.

Since when did he become so handsome? Has he always been like this?

I swallow nervously as I stare into his eyes and come to the realization that I like him.

I like him.

Oh God.

Abort mission.

I did not sign up for this.

He starts to lean in towards me but I abruptly get up and say,

"We should go home, we have to get up for school pretty early tomorrow."

"Yeah, no. Yeah, definitely let's go." He says scratching the back of his head.

The car ride back home is filled with silence and for once I'm thankful that Namjoon is too.

~~~~~~~Back to present day~~~~~

Y/N POV

Oh just call him! What's the worst that could happen?

Oh I don't know he rejects me and never talks to me again?

Just do it!

Noooooooo

Ok fine!

I dial his phone and it rings.

Once.

Twice.

"Hello?" a female voice says.

I was prepared for the worst, but somehow this is much much worse.