Proximity| A Kim Namjoon Fanfiction [Hyung Line Book 1] **COMPLETED**

Awakening

Y/N's POV

So. I'm getting my hair and makeup done because it seems I'm going to be in Namjoon's music video. I'm practically going to be half naked, I don't know if I'm ready for this but there's no going back now. I step out of the dressing room, and the boys are all waiting outside.

"WAHHHH SO PRETTY" they all shout. I shake my head in embarrassment and continue to walk towards the area of the shoot.

The director explained that the video has a very simple concept. It's basically just going to be Namjoon rapping and I just have to be there and look innocent yet subtly sexy at the same time.

Namjoon comes towards the set, and he instantly locks eyes with me.

**A/N: If you haven't seen the video for 'Do You' just know that the girl in it was only in a pair of briefs and a big sweater****

He looks at my legs and locks onto them as if he can't look away. He's looking at me hungrily as if he wants to devour me.

Oh God. I knew this was a bad idea.

I cough and that seems to wake him up from his trance. He clears his throat and he comes closer to me and smiles then looks me up and down one last time.

"You're enjoying this aren't you? Torturing me?" he asks

I look away from him and pass my hand through my hair but he grabs it and presses it against his crotch.

"You see what you do to me?" he asks

I gulp audibly.

Dear God.

I draw my hand back quickly. 

Thank God no one was looking.

The video begins shooting and it goes by surprisingly fast and easy, it wasn't too hard.

 Unlike Namjoon.

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After the shoot ends I decide to go to the beach to clear my mind. I hear footsteps approaching me but I don't have to look back to know who it is.

"So this is where you were.." Namjoon says as he sits next to me.

"I thought I told you not to come near me during this trip." I say

"My intentions are pure, no need to be so rude. How long has it been since we've talked?" he asks me

He does have a point. We were once inseparable and never went a day without talking, but once feelings get involved everything changes. That was one of the reasons I never wanted to confess to him, I love him dearly but I would rather have his friendship then nothing at all.

I lay my head on his shoulder and close my eyes and just enjoy the calm breeze blowing against us as we look out at the sea.

"What's this, you're openly showing affection?" he asks

I smile and open one eye and look up at his face.

"Why do you have to ruin everything?" I ask

We stare at each other for a long while. I never realized how much I just wanted to admire his features. I could stare at him forever.

He smiles at me then kisses my forehead. I close my eyes at the gesture but when I open them, I feel tears start to brim, and I begin to get up.

"I knew this was a bad idea." I say as I grab my sandals off the sand. He gets up quickly and says,

"I'm sorry Y/N I just couldn't help myself, you know how I feel, I just- I'm sorry I won't touch you again."

"The problem isn't you touching me. The problem is the feeling you leave on my skin after you do. I find myself going crazy and I just feel confused, you confuse me. I need to walk away from you but I can't find it in myself to do it." I say

He walks around me until he's in my face again, he grabs my face gently and rubs my cheeks softly.

"I'm willing to go all in if you are. I don't know what's holding you back, but just tell me and I'll make it go away."

"That's the problem, you can't. I've already made my decision."

"Y/N I don't understand what-"

I interrupt.

"I signed a contract!" I blurt out

"You what?" he asks

"I signed a contract with PD-nim to stay away from you! He saw what happened in the elevator and I told him I'd stay away!"

His face is flat. I can't read the expression on his face. Maybe now he will finally learn to hate me and leave me alone.

Hate me. 

Hate me and maybe I can learn to feel the same towards you.