So hi
You say you love me
And that you care
But it's kind of hard to believe
You
When the only people who say that
Are the ones hurting me...
But
You've never caused me any harm
You've never made me feel worthless
You've never had me think twice
About living
I don't understand why
You love me
Or
Why I matter to you
When everybody else is a rose
And I'm only a dandelion
In this terrifying yet lovely garden.
Why you chose me
Of all people
Throws me off a bit.
Just a little
Because
Really?
I'm not special
If I were to die
Maybe you and my family would
Go to my funeral
But I'd be forgotten
I always am
Don't get me wrong
I really do love you
And I finally know what it's like
To find someone you would live for
When you would much rather
You know
Um
Yeah.
You're different
I don't know what it is
But it's there
And I'm sorry I'm not the best girlfriend
I'm a loser
If we're going to be honest
Don't argue with me on that
And don't look at me like that
Because this time you will read this
I don't know if you're actually still reading
But hey
I'm just going to keep going
I'm sorry I get jealous
Like...REALLY jealous
I can't help it
You're just so amazing
I really don't want to share...
I'm really lucky to have met you
In a world full of people
And I hope we last for a very long time
Preferably forever
But whatever
Because I can't
Guarantee you'll stay
Not once you start realizing
What an anxious and spacey
Girl I am
I mean...
I can't really help it
The way I am
But I'm trying to fix it
So just stick around for a while...
Please?
I love you
More than anything
Well maybe except living
I kinda like that
But if you told me to die
I'd do it in a heartbeat
But anyways
That's not my point
My point for writing this really
Stupid
Long
Poem
That I'd be surprised if you actually
Made it this far in
Is that you make me so so so happy
And I love you
A lot
And I want you to be content
Even if it's not with me.
Even if you end up hating me
Because I screw up a lot
A LOT
I'll always be here for you
I mean
I may hate myself
But I'll never stop loving you
Which is actually funny
Because
People say that you can't love someone
Until you love yourself
But honestly I love you so much
I kind of forget to hate myself
For once in my life
I have found the person
That makes me like myself
Because wow
I like myself a whole lot more
When I'm with you
Please don't leave...
I love you
And if you've made it this far
Thank you
For reading this
You really didn't have to
