Life Goes On - Kellic

Chapter 10

That was the voice of the one and only Kellin fucking Quinn. I slowly turned around and saw him. What. The. Fuck. His. He. Doing. Here. I didn't know how to react when I saw Kellin for the first time in so long. Sure I've imagined it so many times over the last couple years. But I wasn't expecting it to be like this. He looks different. His voice got a bit deeper but still recognizable. I knew he'd be here any day from what he told me in the letter. I literally was not expecting this. Theres to much going on what the hell is happening, I don't understand the situation that's going on now. So many things going though my mind and then... everything went dark-

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Shortly after Vic turned around and saw me he passes out. The fuck? I went over and tried to lift him up, but Mike came over and helped me out he placed Vic on the couch and we have to wait a bit. He looked different, he's a lot skinner then I remember, and there's bags under his eyes, which means he hasn't had much sleep in I don't know how long. Mike told me to stay in the kitchen until he can get Vic to wake up and explain to him what's going in. "Come on Vic... wake up..." Mike said lightly tapping Vic's face. After a couple minutes he did wake up. "Ughhh" he sighed. "Vic you ok?" Mike asked in a concerned voice. "What happened?" He asked Mike. "Ummm, you passed out for a couple minutes" Mike explained to him. "Why?" Vic asks. Mike looked over at us quickly then back at Vic. "You don't remember?" Mike stated. "Well, I thought I heard Kellin's voice, but that can't be..." He said. "A-actually Vic, Kellin is here, and that's why you fainted, at least what's what we think" Mike told him. "K-Kellin's here?" He spoke slowly. And Mike looked at me and motioned for me to go over there. I did as told and went over to them and showed myself to Vic. "Hi Vic" I said shyly.

He didn't say anything right away. But that's ok. "Hi Kels" he said in a way I can't describe I think it was a good thing though. I carefully sit down next to him. Yes this situation was very awkward, more so then I thought it would be. But just then Vic leaned over and hugged me really tight, I might add, and started crying. So I hugged him back and I started tearing too. "I never thought I'd see you again" Vic said through his sobs. "I know, I never thought I'd see you too" I said to him. And we just sat there for a while holding on to each other. Mike I heard walk away, giving is a few moments to ourselves. This was the most perfect moment and I never want it to end. But like all moments like this they come to an end, unfortunately. Mike came back over to us with everyone else, Matty, Jesse, and Tony. Tony said that he texted Jaime to come over so he should be here soon too. "Ok Vic, this is Matty, and his cousin Jesse. They drove me here from Michigan" I told him. "And Matty, Jesse this is Vic" I introduce everyone. Vic gave a small hello to them and a wave. "So your the famous Vic, Kellin's been talking about for two years...." Matty stated to him. And I see Vic blush at that comment, then he looked at me. "You talked about me?" Vic questioned me. But before I could answer Matty did. "Are you kidding, everyday it was Vic this, or Vic that, or even what's Vic doing, I miss Vic" Matty said trying to sound like me, but in a more whiny tone. Again that made Vic blush, and smile at me. "Is that true?" He asked me. I lower my head in defeat, and embarrassment. "Yes" I say shyly. Just then the door opened and Jaime came walking in. "Kellin!" He said to me. "Hey, Jaime" I said to him. "You know it's about time you show up, we couldn't get Vic to shut up about you" he said in a joking manner. "Really?" I said looking at Vic. He nodded, and I smiled at him. One thing that happened to me there was that I got more confident in myself, I think it shows.

"Well since we're all here now you want to explain everything that's happened Kellin" Mike asked. I really didn't but I knew I had too. "Ok.... Well first my grandparents gave me a stupid phone, taking mine, so I can only call them, right Matty..." He nodded in agreement. "....They did that cause they wanted to strip me of everyone I knew, and myself so they can "try" and make me the man they wanted me to be, cause they were mad at my mom for letting be be myself, and being gay, so they enrolled me into Catholic high school, that's where I met Matty, and later on Jesse here, so I can "out grow my gay phase", and they hoped that it would make me normal and like girls, but it didn't. They don't understand that I can't be that way. Anyway, moving on, after that about six months, to almost a year later things got really bad for me, sure I was depressed after I left, but this is when it got really bad, even Matty doesn't know this, but during that really dark time, is when I thought and almost killed myself...." I paused after that and I heard a few gasps, and I took a hard swallow and continued on. "...But it was the hope I had that you, Vic, still loved me and that's what I held onto and I didn't go through with it. And I promised myself to get better for you, so I can see you again. And I was determined to do so, and here I am." I finished. Trying to make it as quick as possible and to explain everything. "So Vic tell me about you know" I said to him.

He gave a nervous look to Mike, Tony and Jaime. "Why, I didn't do much" he said nervously. "Come on I just told you about me, please Vic?" I asked him. Mike patted his leg and a nod, they were having a silent conversation with each other "Ok... I literally didn't do much, I went to and from college and I stayed in my room a lot, unless Tony or Jaime were here.  Mike would have to listen to my constant complaining about you and everything else..." I looked up and Mike and he nodded in agreement with Vic. "...Kellin I really missed you like you don't understand what I went through while you were gone.... I'll let Mike explain later cause I can't talk about that" Vic explained. I nodded. "Mikey I have to go it's getting late" Tony says to us. He kisses Mike and walks out. I guess that answers the question of them still being together. I asked Matty and Jesse to step out for a moment cause Vic didn't want them here for this, they understand its personal stuff.

He said Jaime can stay, so this must have something to to with him. "Ok Kellin, I kept trying to get Vic to move on from you, because, we didn't know what was going on with you, we thought you forgot about him, and it was really hurting him, and Vic has been drinking a lot, and I never saw him drink on his own. So one day I took him to a party with Jaime and Tony. Vic and Jaime were wasted, then when they played spin the bottle, they kissed and then soon after they tried to date- it only lasted two months, till Vic broke it off with me- yeah cause it wasn't fair for you, I still loved Kellin..." Jaime and Vic interrupted Mike. Did Vic say loved as in not anymore, I felt my heart drop. "...anyway, before I got interrupted..." And he glared at them "...Vic was still a mess after that, and one day when I came home from school I found Vic unconscious and bleeding so they the ambulance took him to the hospital and that's when I made Vic see a therapist after that cause I was so freaked out and I didn't want this to happen again, and he still goes..." Mike finished only cause Vic told him to. I looked at Vic with puppy dog eyes and worry. "Look I didn't have that hope you had, I really thought to forgot me and I couldn't stand that thought, but it wasn't only you it also because of my parents too, ok.... Then a couple months ago when I got the letter from you and the cd you recorded for me, that's when I knew you still love me and were coming here, my mood improved a bit, and I started to regain that hope" Vic explained to me. I reached out and hugged him again. He started tearing again.

Matty and Jesse came back over and said that they were going to find a motel to stay, it was late it was nearing midnight now, so I got up and was going to go with them, but Vic grabbed my arm and told me to stay with him. So I let Matty and Jesse go and they said that they'll be back in the morning. And we nodded, then Jaime left saying bye to us too. And now I'm left with Vic and Mike. Mike then went up to his room and I followed Vic to his. His room looks the same, except a bit more messy. "Oh I left my stuff with Matty- it's ok you can borrow something" Vic interrupted me. Then he reached under his pillow and grabbed something. "Here, you left a shirt and when I found it I put it under there, it's all I had left of you, and your the only one who knows, but since it's yours you can know, I hope you don't find it weird" he said. "No it's fine it would have done the same thing" I said back to him. And it's true if I did find something of his I would keep it close to me too.

So I hold the shirt and I went to change clothes. Went to the bathroom and took off my pants, leaving my boxers and then I changed shirts and I went back to Vic's room, making sure to knock before going in. He said to come in and so I did. Vic was just sitting on the bed when I came back and I went over and he smiled at me. I went over to him and say there too. Then we got into his bed and put his arm over me from behind, and then kissed the back of my neck. "I'm really glad your back Kels" he said. I turned around and kissed his nose. "I'm glad to be back Vic" I said then we fell asleep.