don't forget to smile

Chapter 8

I walked down the stairs, right behind Hoseok. I lightly stepped into the kitchen and sat down. I didn't know what to do, so I sat quietly and listened. Hoseok sat infront of me and made silly faces, I giggled and immediately after my face became stern again. "So are you ready for school tomorrow Cynthia?" Hoseoks mother said as she placed my plate infront of me. "What?" I said nearly choking on my silva.I hadn't been to school in nearly 5 years, I had been homeschooled since my mothers suicide. I fought my anxiety inside my head and controlled myself. " School are you ready? I have your uniform ready, and all your papers are in order for you to start tomorrow, your gifted did you know that?" Hoseoks mother smiled lightly and bit into her food. " Oh, school! I am ready, at least I hope I am and no mam I didn't know I was gifted" I responded nervously. " and don't worry about your classes, We made sure you and Hoseok had the same schedule." Hoseoks father chimed into the conversation. Hoseok smiled at me through mouthfuls of food. I ate but instantly felt sick to my stomach. The food looked so good but I just could not eat it, so I was sad. I pushed away my plate with regret, " may I be excused I do not feel very well, I am sorry ms.Jung" Ms.Jung excused me and I bowed and stepped away. I slowly climbed up the stairs and I felt my stomach twitch and turn."what am I going to do?" I questioned my social skills, they weren't very good. I laid on my bed and as I thought about it I fell into a deep disturbing sleep.

I woke up in my old house, the lights of my room were turned off but the kitchen lights were still on. As my eyes adjusted to the dark a loud voice could be heard in the kitchen. " You filthy worthless piece of trash, you can't even make a simple bowl of ramen! This is disgusting! Don't feed me this trash, I will make you learn your lesson!" My father screamed in rage as he threw my mother the food and pulled out his belt. I curled myself into a ball and put my pillow over my head, I bolted upwards in a chilling sweat. " it was just a dream, It was just a dream, it was just a dream, it was just dream" I repeated to myself, the nightmares were back.