Reece kisses me goodbye when he hears the bell go and then I walk over to my locker. I put my bag in and then walk to homeroom. Michael is in my homeroom luckily, so I walk over to the table he was sitting at and sit next to him.
"hey Michael" I say as I sit down.
"Hey brooke" he says and kind of hugs me while we're sitting. Michael had dark blonde hair and chubby lips. He was so easy to talk to and really funny. We always talked about the most random things and he could always make me laugh.
Is it bad that I only know one teacher in the school's name? I just never need to know, I just call them Miss or Sir. My music teacher is the only one I know the name of, Mr Anderson. He was my favourite teacher!
Anyway after homeroom was finished I had to get my book for English. I had english with Cal and Luke luckily. They always make English fun! I walk over to my locker and get out my notebook and a pen and then shut my locker. When I turn around Luke and Calum are walking over to me.
"Hey" I say and smile at them.
"Hi" Luke says and gives me a quick hug.
"How are you?" Calum asks and gives me a whopper of a hug.
"I'm great, I got to spend my morning getting death stared and being bored to death. " I say and smile sarcastically.
"I seriously dont get why you wont just come chill with us in the morning" Luke says.
"And at lunch and little lunch as you call it" Calum adds.
"Because Reece is my boyfriend. If I was your girlfriend wouldn't you want me to hang around with you and your friends?" I say and Calums smile drops.
"Yeah I see your point" he say and his gaze drops to the floor. I hope he doesnt think I'm mad at him!
Luke senses the tension and says "Come on were in room 16" and we all start walking together. When we get there we walk in and take a seat in the second last row on the side. Luke sits on the very edge, then Calum then me. When everyone else gets in the class a girl called Shae sits next to me. I dont know her too well but shes pretty funny.
English goes pretty quickly and then I go to history with Ashton and Luke. That doesn't go by as quick but it wasnt boring, Ashton made me laugh a lot. Ashton has Blonde hair, its naturally Curly but he straightens it. He has a really adorable laugh. Luke has blonde hair too and he can be quiet and shy a lot but Calum tells me that if I really got to know him I'd see him come out of his shell a lot more. I dont really talk to these boys except for in class. I think they're great though.
After history finishes I go to put my book in my locker and I see Reece waiting in front of my locker and almost every girl in the locker bay staring at him like hes the only guy on the planet. I walk over to him and kiss him on the cheek subtly. He lets me put my books away and then grabs my hand.
"Hold on I just need to go talk to Calum for a minute" I say and try to walk over to Cal but Reece doesnt let my hand go.
"Reece come on" I say and try to free my grip but he just tightens it.
"I don't like that kid, I dont want you to be friends with him" Reece says and the anger builds up inside me so quickly I almost explode.
"You cant tell me who I can and cant be friends with Reece! Calum has been my best friend since year 7 and he's always been there for me whenever you go around hooking up with anything that walks! You may be my boyfriend but you dont have the right to say who I can be friends with! What would you do if I told you to stop talking to girls? You wouldnt! You might say you would but a week later you'd go and cheat on me!" I'm screaming at him now and almost all of my year level are watching intently. Even Calum, Luke, Ashton and Michael are watching now.
"Hold the fuck up Brooke, I'm your boyfriend, if you loved me you'd fuck him off! I love you but come on hes a little prick just get rid of him for fuck sake!" he says and points to Calum. Calum walks over and stands beside me as Reece lets go of my wrist. He kind of stands in front of me protectively and I hear him breathe in deeply.
"Reece just fuck off! You treat Brooke like absolute shit and expect her to do anything you say! You don't love her, you're just using her! I love her more than you ever could love her!" Calum screams. It takes me a few seconds to realize what he just said... He said he loves me...
I turn to face Calum and silently ask "you.. you love me?". His cheeks go a little pink but then the determination returns to his eyes.
"Of course I do, you're my best friend!" he says. I know that Calum is in the friendzone, but it hurt and I dont know why.
"Hh of course" I say quietly.
"Go fuck yourselfs!" Reece yells and storms off. He's probably going to go hook up with the filthy whore.
Calum turns to face me and gives me a hug.
"Are you okay?" he asks.
"I'll be fine" I say and whipe a tear from my eye. He pulls me back into another hug. The people had all started to leave when Reece did. It was just me, Cal, Luke, Ashton, Michael and some other people whose names I didnt know.
"Come sit with us" Calum suggests and I just nod and follow the 4 boys outside. They sit at a bench next to the oval. It's a nice, quiet spot, I like it. It's nowhere near where Reece would be.
"How are you feeling?" Ashton asks me.
"On top of the world" I say obviously sarcastically. I didn't mean to sound rude but I think it did. "I'm sorry I dont mean to be rude, I'm just pissed off" I say.
"It's okay I understand" He says. Calum sits next to me on the bench, Ashton and Luke sit on the other side and Michael sits on the table. I dont exactly listen to what they're talking about, I'm too busy thinking to myself.
Why did it hurt when Calum said he only loved me as a friend? I don't love him? Well I mean hes my best friend and I love him as that, but not as anything more.. I think? I'm so confused, I thought I loved Reece, but after that little moment it feels like everything kind of changed. I think I do have slight feelings for Calum, but he doesn't have any back.
I forgot I was actually in the real world until somone said something. I was too busy overthinking things.
"Sorry what?" I ask whoever it was who said something.
"What are you thinking about?" Michael asks. I feel my face heating up.
"Why.." I ask.
"Well you were thinking really hard because your face was scrunched up and you completely ignored what we were saying to you" he summarizes. I cant say what I was thinking about but I'm a horrible liar. Fuck, my face is burning I can feel it. I don't say anything. I just get up and walk away as quickly as I can. I hear Calum calling after me but I ignore him. I need somewhere quiet where no one will talk to me. The library seems like a good place. I weave through people until im there safely. I find a nice little table and I get a random book out and make it look like I'm reading. I can't read though, I just keep over thinking things.
Calum is my best friend, I'm meant to love Reece. I don't though. Ever since the argument I just don't love him. I cant bring myself to say I love Reece. But I can't have feelings for Calum either, I'd ruin our friendship if I told him I liked him, especially since he doesn't like me back. I can't fuck things up with Cal because of stupid feelings. I need to tell myself I don't have feelings for him so hopefully I believe myself.
I don't like Calum
I don't have feelings for Calum
I don't love Calum
Calum is just my friend
Oh who am I kidding I've liked Calum for years without even knowing it.
