It's over...

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So, hi.

Goddammit I typed in the title of this and I'm already depressed. 😔

Soooo... We broke up.

Yeah... I know.

I'm not really sure what to say.

I guess I'll start here...

So my datefriend has figured out that they are now a he. Rowan is now a boy and wants to transition physically to be a man. Although I am very happy that he has found that out about himself after being so dysphoric, you all know that I am a lesbian which conflicts with the male transition.

After thorough deliberation, I had to make the decision on whether or not to stay together. On one hand, him and I were so perfect for eachother and I was definitely head over heels for him, but on the other hand, I am homosexual and don't want to be with someone who I can't be with in the long-term which does include sex.

There are no hard feelings for eachother, there is no spite, it's just two people who are finding out more about themselves as time progresses.

As for this book, I may write some more parts with the remaining advice that I have for LDRs and answering your questions, but I probably won't be sharing any experiences. I will still keep the book up, unless Rowan prefers for me not to have it up.

Would I ever be in another long-distance relationship?

Probably not. I never wanted to be in one in the first place; I only made this one exception for Rowan because he was so perfect. Now that I have been in one, I know the hardships of going through it: not being able to be there for one another, time difference, no physical contact, and emotional distance. This just puts me off of it for good.

As for the fanfictions, I don't mind if you keep them up, but I won't be publically posting about it on my page. Ask GrungeCastiel about it, he may not want to have them up.

As for future relationships, who knows? I will probably be single forever now that I know how losing someone who means so much feels, but no one can know for sure.

As for me and Rowan, it's hard for the both of us, but when our strong feelings start to subside, I hope we can still maintain our friendship.

Go send some love to GrungeCastiel! I would really appreciate it if you did!

I don't know what else to say so,

Stay Strong,
Lily

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