We rushed to my house. I was hopping that my mom didn't see it. I would be in so much trouble if she did. This can't be happening.. I'm suppose to be DEAD!!!
We got to my house and we rushed inside. My mom was in her office working. I ran upstairs into my bedroom and there was the note, untouched. Just the way I left it.
I closed my door and started crying. Austin rushes over to comfort me but I push him away.
"I'M SUPPOSE TO BE DEAD!!" I yelled at him, still sobbing.
"I couldn't let you."
"YOUR SELFISH! YOU ONLY THOUGHT OF YOURSELF BEFORE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT HOW MY LIFE MUST BE!!! I JUST WANT TO DIE!!!"
"Your life isn't horrible. Trust me. Your lucky."
"HOW DO YOU KNOW?! YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MY LIFE IS!"
"I know enough. Your a lucky person Avery."
I just fall down, sobbing even harder. I can't deal with all of this sadness and depression. I want everyone to stop caring and just let me fall away. I don't deserve this. I don't deserve to live.
He walks over to me and wraps his arms around me. I don't fight it this time, I'm too weak and sad to do anything but cry.
"It's going to be okay. Your still here."
That's all he says. We stay like this for hours. I start falling asleep and I feel myself being lifted up. He's carrying me to my bed. Thank you Austin.
I make eye contact with him as he sets me down. He pulls my covers over me and heads to my door.
"Wait" I say. "Stay."
Without hesitation he walked over to the other side of the bed, pulling the covers over us. He pulls me into him and we stay like that. Sleeping together. (But just sleeping not fucking.)
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The Sunset // Suicidal Love Story
RomanceAvery Carver was your "normal" 16 year old, except, she was chronically depressed and suicidal. She was planning her suicide all summer. Then school started and there was a new boy. His name was Austin Brant. This story explains how there's still ho...
