The Sunset // Suicidal Love Story

Chapter Fifteen

   It's been a month since I found out I was pregnant. Austin and I are very happy. Well, almost happy.
   I fell back into my usual depression. There isn't one day that goes by that I don't think about suicide. But Austin doesn't know that. He can't know. He'll be mad at me.

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   I lay on my bed thinking about my future. I can't give this baby anything. I don't have anything. I'm just a suicidal, depressed teenager with an unsteady home life. I can't possibly raise a child, I can barely keep myself alive.
   I sit at my bed and remember I have a note in my vent. I can still jump off that bridge and not have to worry about anything. Finally, a good idea. This time I won't call anyone and I'll make sure Austin is gone when I place the note.
   I put the note on my bed and make my way to the bus station.
   I enter the bus and take my seat towards the back. I ponder my plans for my suicide. I'm going to jump off as soon as I get there

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   I get off the bus and start walking on the bridge. I make it half way and then I step on the edge. I look straight and I see the sun setting. I take a deep breath and free fall. No one saved me. It wasn't meant to be.
   All I wanted in life was to end it. I hated this world and I didn't want to be in it. My baby and I are at peace and nothing can change that.
   I neared the ground and everything went black. I'm save, I'm free.