poetry for the poetic: 5

XI

i lie with a sadness
thoughts of your hands
wild things
like being with your being
touching your soul
when you didn't know
i twist my body
in ways for you
doing things because i love you
but the blunt force
the locked doors
calls of crazy
your hands laid beside me
i touch your toes
with the cold of my feet
you pull away
all i wanted was to hold your hand
you said you loved me
i know you did
but the word that's hard
is the word did
we tango through walls
crushing each other
with a deepness
a cold black sadness
i drop to your knees
there were no tears in the eyes of your seas
i hug you twice
one more time
three years i tangoed with you
i'll never forget the day
i fell in love with you.