3: Never Let Go (John & Lenny Pearce/Justice Crew Fanfic)

Chapter 5

* Lenny’s POV *

John stood there frozen, perhaps replaying what I had just spilled out of my mouth accidentally. I hated the fact I had to be the one saying it to him, since it was me who has been telling people that I didn’t want to add more pain in his heart because I knew it wouldn’t do him good.

I hated the fact that my anger took the best of me. I should’ve listened to Alesia the moment she explained that nothing was going on, but the fact that I didn’t, made me regret everything that happened today.

The fight with Alesia for leaving her to meet Serenity, and the rage I felt for punching John in the face. I was pushing away two of the people who were very important to me. Why didn’t I believe them?

Maybe it was because I felt the same way Alesia did this morning. Seeing your loved one getting comfortable with another person, instead of you, made me realize how much of a douche I was to my own girl, just to make another person happy.

They were all right. Serenity wasn’t my responsibility. It was just the guilt that’s pulling me onto her. The same guilt Jaq may have used towards John, and we all knew how that ended. Losing the only girl you’ll ever love.

And I’m not ready to lose Alesia. No, not ever.

John must have woken up from his dazed self and fixed himself up, before leaving towards one direction, his head down.

“John, where are you going?” I yelled at him, but he didn’t even turn around or shouted back his answer. He just continued walking, neglecting our calls. Even Alesia was trying to help me out.

Running towards his retreating figure, I managed to stop him. Alesia carried Harley and caught up with us. “Bro, where are you heading to?” I asked as my hand was gripping on his arm tightly, but still didn’t say a word.

Instead, he shot me some deathly glares and yanked his arm away from, continued on his walk away from all of us.

“John, wait up!” I didn’t give up on him, though he was pushing me away. There was so much anger painted in his face which was expected. If I would be in his place, I’d feel the same way.

Though compared to his previous blow ups, he took it differently this time. Quiet John was scary. And it didn’t help that he wanted to be alone because they were so many thoughts happening in my mind, thinking he’d go suicidal. Two girls were hurt because of him and that was so much of a big deal.

“John…”

“Just eff off, Lenny.” He shouted back as Alesia pulled me to stop bothering him, saying that maybe John wouldn’t do such a thing, and I’d only help him do such things he’ll regret in the future.

I stopped, thinking Alesia might be right. John just need some time alone. But it wouldn’t stop me from wishing and praying he would be alright.

* John’s POV *

Two girls. I’ve ruined two girls’ lives.

It took me two girls to realize how much of a bad luck I was. What have I ever done to deserve this? Would it be because I have a history of playing with girl’s hearts? Yes, I do admit that I’ve been on that stage after Jaq had rejected me, but only because I thought I wouldn’t find that girl I could settle down with. And then, I did, but I’ve only hurt her because of my choices.

Karma surely bit my ass.

To top it all off, I pulled another innocent girl into my wrath. Worse, I have ruined not just only her life in general, but also her future and career. She lost her eyesight because of my outburst of emotions.