Don't Leave Me

chapter 5

*dinah pov*

I woke up to find someone I wasn't expecting to be there. I tried to get out of her grip but she held me tightly.

"just stay with me. I missed you." she muttered.

"mani, I'm heavy. at least lay on top of me."

"you're not heavy."

"whatever." I said, rolling my eyes.

I got out of her grip as she whined. I pull her up before I laid down under her. her face buried in my neck as my arms wrapped around her waist.

"i still have to tell you why I did what I did 10 years ago.." she mumbled, her face feeling hotter than before.

"you don't have to."

"but I want to. I shouldn't have said those things."

"m-" I started but was cut off by Justine, walking into the room.

"mommy, I had a nightmare."

I sighed as I kissed normani on the head. I feel her go to my side, still trying to sleep. I motioned for Justine to come here and she laid on me. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her forehead.

"what was it about baby?"

"mom killed herself." she said crying.

"baby, what do you mean killed? do you know what that means."

"when you die. mommy, what if mom is dead ?"

"sweetie, why would she be dead? she would be leaving such her daughter behind."

Justine kept crying and I felt my heart break. I could hear soft snores come from mani.

"Dinah , you need to see this." Camila said, entering my room.

her face told me that I needed to see this. I got out of bed, making normani wake up. I grabbed Justine and held her on my waist as we went downstairs . I heard mani following behind.

Anise Richards died in traffic.

i watched a the reporter sticks a microphone to some guy that was there. he apparently witnessed what had happened.

"I saw this woman, who wasn't looking well. I tried to talk to her but she dismissed me. she told me that she didn't want to continue living if she wasn't going to have her true love with her. she didn't want the pain anymore. I tried to stop her but she ran away from me and into the streets where the cars were coming quickly ."

I could feel tears come down my face and loud sobs from Justine. she lost a mother. everything around me started to get silent and soon is was just me watching Camila and mani talking to me with me not knowing what they were saying. I watched as they turned to the side and the door opened. ally, Lauren, and zendaya came in.

they were all speaking to me but at that moment I couldn't hear anything. I could only watch their actions. how could she do that? how could she end her life knowing that she'll be leaving behind our 6 year old daughter? I get that you'd want the pain to stop watching the one you love be with someone else but why go through drastic measures to end the pain? Justine is still a kid and she needs her parents but now she only has one. I vow to protect her with my life and never let her go. I don't want her to fear for the day that I might kill myself.

I couldn't because I can't leave my daughter to be in foster care. I want her to be happy knowing that I'll never leave her. this was something I never expected . I didn't expect her to commit suicide because I didn't want to be with her. yes, it's heartbreaking but it's life. you shouldn't kill yourself because you didn't get what you want or else I would've died a long time ago . how could she be so selfish? she knew exactly who she'd be leaving behind but did she give any thought to it ? probably not. she's too blinded by her love for me, she didn't think about who she was leaving.