Those Were The Days...

Journal Entry 3

It was October second, 2011 and it was our first meeting with Modest! Management. I'll admit, I was fucking scared shitless. I had no clue if they would accept Harry and I the way everyone else had. Up to this point, everybody had been so supportive of us. Even the fans loved the "bromance".

I had no idea what to expect. When we arrived at the office Harry and I were both putting on happy faces, but inside I could tell he just wanted to scream.

We were sat down in a large meeting room, with the other boys around us, with Harry on my lap and we took a picture together that later ended up all over the Internet. A few minutes later, the management team had arrived. "Hello, I'm Mr. Walters, and I will be Managing you boys' band." He explains.

They got right down to business, telling us about "what the future holds" "how to act in public" blah blah things like that. my body may have been in the room, but my mind wasn't. I was just waiting for them to address 'Larry Stylinson'. Eventually, they did.

They started out with, "So, Louis, we understand that you and Harry here are in a relationship?"

"y-Yes sir we've been dating for almost six months now..." I managed to chirp out. God, why is my voice so high-pitched?

"I see," he said, "And it's been going well, I see?" He questions

"Um- Yes sir" Harry chimed in being the helpful, cheeky little twerp he is.

"Alright, well i see that this is a serious relationship, but fans cannot know that you boys are gay..." He starts.

"What do you mean?" Harry stands up and stares at Mr. Walters.

"Harold, I'm sorry, but that's just the way things are. If fans know you aren't five accessible, straight boys, you will not be nearly as popular as you could be. You would lose fans, and with your career just lifting off, you do not want that, I assure you. Its a lot to take in now, but you'll thank me later."

"Harry, babe, calm down, we can make it work, I promise." I was trying to calm the boy down, but he was genuinely upset.

"That is why I am assigning Louis here, a 'stand-in' girlfriend. You will need to spend time with her, get to know her, because you will be around her alot. Her name is Eleanor Calder." Mr. Walters Explained

Harry and I stood there with our mouths wide open not knowing what to do.

"Louis, Harry, are you okay?" Liam asks

"NO! I am not okay!" I scream " I will not do this to Harry! He needs me and I can't just leave him!" I exclaim, not realizing Harry looked like he was about to cry.

"Louis,, you can still be together, you just have to keep it under wraps! We cant tell anyone..." Niall explains.

"So you want to lie to the fans? I ask Niall " Because I certainly don't" I ask sassily and cross my arms waiting for his answer.

"No, but if it's best for the band maybe we should..." Niall says.

"I can't believe this!" I throw my hands into the air. "Babe, its fine as long as I have you" Harry says and he makes me want to kiss him then and there, but I know nows not the time.

"When do I meet her?" I ask

"Shes actually here today I'll call her in." Mr. Walters says as he leaves the room and I turn to Harry.

"Babe, if your not okay with this please say something..." I plead him. "Lou, it's fine, we know whats real, and whats not, so we can still be together, just decreetly" he pushes and then pecks me on the lips and whispers in my ear "I trust you, it's okay."

Then a girl, who I assume is Eleanor, walks in the room. Shes tall, with brown hair and I guess she kinda looks like me in way... "Hi, Im Eleanor, nice to meet you Louis!" she says and hugs me. Wow, pushy much?

"Hello." I simply say. Then we are left to an awkward silence. "Hi I'm Harry." Harry calmly says and leans over to shake her hand "Its nice to meet you Eleanor, I'm Louis's boyfriend..."

"Oh I know who you are its okay!" she says and wow can you spell P E R K Y. We quickly exchange numbers. Mr. Walters says, " So, Tonight you will go on your first 'date' and make yourselves public. you'll also use this opportunity to get acquianted."

"Okay," she says. "Whatever," I say glumly. "Good you'll meet tonight then."Mr. Walters explains.

I could really care less.

"Hi Louis!" Eleanor practically screams in my ear. "Hi Elounor." I say and we walk into the high class restaurant.

We sit at a table and order our food. She talked a lot... I don't really remember what about because I was on my phone thinking, "Harry and I could be snuggling watching a horrible movie but not care because we arent even watching it..."

I don't think Harry has been taking this whole Eleanor thing too well. He's barely spoken at all since the meeting, maybe I'll cheer him up with a tweet...

@Louis_Tomlinson

Always in my heart @Harrystyles . Yours sincerely, Louis.

That doesn't give anything away right? I mean, I've tweeted worse...

"LOUIS??" I look up and Eleanor is staring at me."Do you want dessert?" she asks "um..No thanks" I say. Can this get anymore awkward?

When we leave the restaurant that I had already forgotten the name of, there were paps EVERYWHERE! How did they even know?!? I'm beyond pissed by now so we go straight home and I drop off Eleanor at her flat.

When I get home I find Haz in his bed and I snuggled up with him. I wish this day didnt happen... And I know it will probably just get worse at this point. But he knew I loved him more than anything so all I could've done now is comfort him and hope for the best.