Those Were The Days...

Journal Entry 1

I remember it like it was just a week ago. God, the entire fourteen years of One Direction just went by in a blur. And it's very safe to say it's because of my one and only. Harry Styles.

The name gives me chills to this very day. And I'm so glad I can call him mine. The reason why I'm writing all of my fondest memories of these past years is because I don't want to forget a single thing. So when Harry and I are old and losing our memories, we'll be able to remember the most wonderful times either of us could've hoped for. I hope Harry doesnt find me writing this. He thinks im such a sap.

I could never forget the first time i ever saw my Harry. I was eighteen and he was only sixteen. It seemed we both were auditioning for the X Factor. We were in the toilets, and we were both washing our hands and I looked up into the mirror and saw those big, beautiful, green emeralds staring right back at me. I lost my breath and just got a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach and I just wanted to run my hands through those curls.

It was just extremely odd, because at the time I never had experienced this type of feeling towards a male. I had always liked girls. I never felt the way I feel about him with any guy or girl. He just smiled and turned to walk away. Did he notice how shocked I was? Did he even feel the same way? I was determined to talk to him and find out as much as I could, even if I happen to make a fool out of myself.

After I had made it through auditions I saw him again. I thought he sang like an angel sent from heaven. I sang "Make You Feel My Love" (ironic huh?) i didn't feel like I had sang well enough to make it through, more to just prove a point. Then, after boot camp, we were BOTH told we didn't make it through. I was more surprised for him than for me. We were called back and and we're too the best news ever to reach our ears. They put Harry (i had just learned his name), Niall, Liam, Zayn, and I in a group. And on instinct, i jumped into Harry's arms. For a second, I felt really dumb. Then, he hugged me back and spun me around. I swear I felt as if I was on a cloud. The others didn't notice, they were all giddy with their own excitement.

Throughout the X Factor, we did quite a few video diaries. My favorite has to be the one where we are asked the question, " If you could date anyone in One direction, who would it be?" My heart almost stopped when i heard a familiar voice say "I'd probably date Louis."

I held his shoulder, looked straight into his eyes and quickly replied with "And I'd marry you, Harry." I didnt know if I should have taken him seriously or not. I, myself, was confused enough as it is.

After we finished filming the Diary, I got up to walk away and Harry said, "Lou, could you hold on a sec?" Of course I did. I nodded and said "Sure..." After the others went back to our room, Harry really nervously asked, and I still remember to this day, "So, Louis... um... well... Did you want to um... maybe, see a movie or something tonight?" My heart stopped. I quickly nodded and almost yelled, "Yes!" then quickly recovered, with a simple, "Yeah that'd be cool."

The rest is History.